BixBees505
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BixBees505
New to SR. 9/30/15 was day 1. Just tired/frustrated, chastened, and mute concerning myself. Have gotten a lot of insight and hope from reading thread after thread on SR, since discovering it a few days ago.
Joining October Class, but SR appeared to recommend posting here, too.
Joining October Class, but SR appeared to recommend posting here, too.
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By no means my first time trying to stop. Last "attempt" I thought I was rock solid, most serious I had ever been. Serious as a heart attack. But here I am again, day 2, and shaken. If I didn't make it last time, how can I, this time? Rhetorical question. I am going to do what it takes, but I guess I hope I learn quickly what it takes.
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Twinsies on the September 30th date and congrats on lasting.
Keep you head up Bix, I know the feeling of being so scared about looking forward because you keep thinking of the past. Dont reflect on how it didnt work before, just be optimistic. Think of how beneficial this will be for you in the future.
If you ever wanna talk, feel free to PM me. Its nice to have someone that is in the same boat as me. We can help each other!
Keep you head up Bix, I know the feeling of being so scared about looking forward because you keep thinking of the past. Dont reflect on how it didnt work before, just be optimistic. Think of how beneficial this will be for you in the future.
If you ever wanna talk, feel free to PM me. Its nice to have someone that is in the same boat as me. We can help each other!
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Originally Posted by BixBees505 
By no means my first time trying to stop. Last "attempt" I thought I was rock solid, most serious I had ever been. Serious as a heart attack. But here I am again, day 2, and shaken. If I didn't make it last time, how can I, this time? Rhetorical question. I am going to do what it takes, but I guess I hope I learn quickly what it takes.
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Thank you all. Been reading here a lot. Going to work now, but will be back on this eve, and will look for the threads suggested. I just feel numb and dumb right now. Need to get through my workday. TTYL.
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Hi BBees. Keep coming back. Keep posting. I saw you on weekenders. That's a great place to just hang out and get to know people.
Why can you do it this time when you didn't last? Faith. You can do it. Change things up this time and keep plugging away. When you're struggling come here first and talk about it instead of waiting.
Hope you slept peacefully. Keep coming back.
Why can you do it this time when you didn't last? Faith. You can do it. Change things up this time and keep plugging away. When you're struggling come here first and talk about it instead of waiting.
Hope you slept peacefully. Keep coming back.
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Ok, I think I'm going to have to post kind of often, so I am retreating to the thread I started when I first signed up with SR.
This is the first workweek I am entering sober. As I posted elsewhere...Work weeks are full of my most consistent triggers; stress, frustration, and sense of professional inadequacy. This is the context of my habitual use. Weekends were only opportunistic. I will be on SR a lot, and working on my sober planning, with the workaday rhythm in the forefront. (Thanks for planning tips and links from Helpimalive!)
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9/30/2015
This is the first workweek I am entering sober. As I posted elsewhere...Work weeks are full of my most consistent triggers; stress, frustration, and sense of professional inadequacy. This is the context of my habitual use. Weekends were only opportunistic. I will be on SR a lot, and working on my sober planning, with the workaday rhythm in the forefront. (Thanks for planning tips and links from Helpimalive!)
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9/30/2015
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Every workday, between around 2 and 4pm, I end up in a very very anxious weirded out state of mind. I don't feel that I have planned adequate how to avoid this., or how to avoid it taking the usual toll later. My hands are actually shaking right now and I am not even to 2pm. I feel almost panic. Head is killing me. So. There you go. I love my job, but it freaks me out, obviously.
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