Sunshinestill28

I've been strong for over 4 years.....My partners family are ALL alcoholics. And they're mean drunks.

Im feeling drained. Sleepless nights. Tears of sadness. Dealing with her drinking every night......Why am I doing this to myself?

I don't have anybody to talk to. Literally. Depression is one reason why I lost every close friend in my life. Being in a same sex relationship effected my friendships as well.
I feel confined. I am financially unable to leave. And frankly my heart still yearns for her love.
And maybe that's only because I'm not receiving the right kind of love. She is so manipulative. She makes me feel bad for her problem. She is just mean 3/4 of the time. Before her I would have never of stayed with someone like her for so long.

Part of it is fear. Fear of leaving & her just moving on quickly & being happy with someone else who is just like her.
I fear her ruining her life without me there to try to help her get better.

I'm freaking pissed & I'm exausted. And I'm hurt.

I just want to feel & be free.

Soberwolf

Welcome Sunshine

SoberLeigh

Welcome, sunshine; I am so sorry for what you are going through.

Tooshabby

Hi Sunshine :-) That sounds like a tough situation. Would you be able to get some counselling? Sounds like some support and help would be a good idea.

advbike

I understand that fear. You will eventually have to move through it in order to be happy, joyous and free. But.. I understand.. for me it's almost impossible to do. I had to get counseling, and learn about codependency. Just remember - To thine own self be true.

FeelingGreat

Hi Sunshine, why not post in the Family and Friends Forum where you'll find lots of people who know what you're going through. They'll be able to share their experiences and how they got through them.

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum Sunshinestill!!

ast1

Welcome Sunshine!