Spoiling Myself with Something Frivolous
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Spoiling Myself with Something Frivolous
I have absolutely zero comfort when it comes to spoiling myself in big ways. Oh, sure, I spend a lot of time & energy on myself - but money? No. There is ALWAYS a greater need in my world & never a great reason to spend what I don't HAVE to. Especially without a coupon, ha!
Any of you with ACoA backgrounds will totally relate to how difficult it is to spend money on myself. How that translates to the feeling that I'm doing something "wrong" or "bad".
But today I had a Carpe Diem moment & I used part of my bonus to buy a package of 8 laser lipo treatments to help me do some body sculpting following my recent weight loss. I've been working SO HARD physically & emotionally to change my body, my mental habits & my emotions related to food. I've been researching & thinking about this for a long time & an even longer time ago I swore to myself that if I ever got into shape again I would do "something" to help with the cosmetic part of the weight loss - targeting specific areas & helping with skin toning/tightening. Today I made good on my promise to me.
I'm SO excited! I have my first appt Thursday afternoon & after talking with the tech at the spa, I'm even more convinced that this is the right type of procedure for me with where I'm at right now with my weight loss.
Any of you with ACoA backgrounds will totally relate to how difficult it is to spend money on myself. How that translates to the feeling that I'm doing something "wrong" or "bad".
But today I had a Carpe Diem moment & I used part of my bonus to buy a package of 8 laser lipo treatments to help me do some body sculpting following my recent weight loss. I've been working SO HARD physically & emotionally to change my body, my mental habits & my emotions related to food. I've been researching & thinking about this for a long time & an even longer time ago I swore to myself that if I ever got into shape again I would do "something" to help with the cosmetic part of the weight loss - targeting specific areas & helping with skin toning/tightening. Today I made good on my promise to me.
I'm SO excited! I have my first appt Thursday afternoon & after talking with the tech at the spa, I'm even more convinced that this is the right type of procedure for me with where I'm at right now with my weight loss.
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Originally Posted by FireSprite 
I've been researching & thinking about this for a long time & an even longer time ago I swore to myself that if I ever got into shape again I would do "something" to help with the cosmetic part of the weight loss - targeting specific areas & helping with skin toning/tightening.
You've come a long way in your recovery. Congratulations on getting very healthy in many ways!! The phrase quoted could be either a good thing that's in balance, or something obsessive with being "better" or trying for perfection in another part of life. Just a little something to think about... that you likely have taken into account. I've only known a couple of women who've had this procedure -- one on the healthy end of things, the other not so much. Both were glad to have done it.
During my physical recovery (from the varied affects of the family disease of alcoholism, and an injury this summer) I've found people who helped me yet had their own agenda, and many more who are on the path of health I'd like to follow.
I trust and know you're finding your way to where is right for you, and in this I applaud you.
Is this vanity or pride? Is it physically and mentally healthy? I have no research or desire in this area yet; I cannot say that won't ever be the truth for me. I'm 48. I see myself getting much more physically active and capable. As that happens, who knows what else will change in my view of myself, my body, and the world around me?
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I love you guys. 
Yes, exactly. I've thought about it from all sides for sure. Vanity or pride? Probably a touch of both, I won't lie. It's all about Me right now.
It's because I love myself; I love my Self & I love my body right now. I never have before.
Because if my body never changes one bit more I know I'd still be just as happy with all of my hard work. I liken this to the perfect accessory or purse, not the entire outfit.
Because I can't even tell you how much weight I've lost exactly - I refuse to obsess over numbers. I judge my health by how I breathe, how clothing fits, is my mind clear?
Because when I was around 8 I started using layers of fat around my body to insulate myself emotionally & was nearly 200 lbs by the time I was 16. Even though I lost that weight & spent many, many thinner years my body always carried the scars & signs of my previous abuse. No matter how "thin" I've ever been, certain stubborn pockets have always remained & no amount of exercise has ever removed them completely. The invasiveness of actual lipo scares the bejesus out of me so this non-invasive alternative is my dream.
It's because Honeypig's daily posting today was about letting go of our focus on money & it read like a kick in the pants as this topic was heavy on my mind today.
It's because my doc says it's not a bad way to follow up the regimen that I just finished up about a month ago - this package also includes B12 injections which may help this metabolic transition, lol.
I learned from CodeJob that personal mantras can be so incredibly empowering when you repeat them over & over with each foot strike of the pavement during a walk or run. Now, I plan on meditating on cutting ties with my previous habits & leaving them behind forever during these sessions. Like scissors - snip, snip, snip! Severing, permanently.
It's because I love & adore all kinds of bodywork. Exercise, body brushing, massages, reflexology, acupuncture, pedicures, face & hair scrubs & masks, you name it.
It's because 4 days ago my friend's ex-wife overdosed but I am still alive.
Because at our first school activity, DD was challenged by her teacher to create a haiku on the spot & the first line was, "I am AMAZING."
Because I feel like during my lifetime my body has been the physical battleground for a turf war - and I am ready to reclaim it in peace.
Originally Posted by keepingthefaith
The phrase quoted could be either a good thing that's in balance, or something obsessive with being "better" or trying for perfection in another part of life. Just a little something to think about... that you likely have taken into account................ Is this vanity or pride? Is it physically and mentally healthy? I have no research or desire in this area yet; I cannot say that won't ever be the truth for me. I'm 48. I see myself getting much more physically active and capable. As that happens, who knows what else will change in my view of myself, my body, and the world around me?
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It's because I love myself; I love my Self & I love my body right now. I never have before.
Because if my body never changes one bit more I know I'd still be just as happy with all of my hard work. I liken this to the perfect accessory or purse, not the entire outfit.
Because I can't even tell you how much weight I've lost exactly - I refuse to obsess over numbers. I judge my health by how I breathe, how clothing fits, is my mind clear?
Because when I was around 8 I started using layers of fat around my body to insulate myself emotionally & was nearly 200 lbs by the time I was 16. Even though I lost that weight & spent many, many thinner years my body always carried the scars & signs of my previous abuse. No matter how "thin" I've ever been, certain stubborn pockets have always remained & no amount of exercise has ever removed them completely. The invasiveness of actual lipo scares the bejesus out of me so this non-invasive alternative is my dream.
It's because Honeypig's daily posting today was about letting go of our focus on money & it read like a kick in the pants as this topic was heavy on my mind today.
It's because my doc says it's not a bad way to follow up the regimen that I just finished up about a month ago - this package also includes B12 injections which may help this metabolic transition, lol.
I learned from CodeJob that personal mantras can be so incredibly empowering when you repeat them over & over with each foot strike of the pavement during a walk or run. Now, I plan on meditating on cutting ties with my previous habits & leaving them behind forever during these sessions. Like scissors - snip, snip, snip! Severing, permanently.
It's because I love & adore all kinds of bodywork. Exercise, body brushing, massages, reflexology, acupuncture, pedicures, face & hair scrubs & masks, you name it.
It's because 4 days ago my friend's ex-wife overdosed but I am still alive.
Because at our first school activity, DD was challenged by her teacher to create a haiku on the spot & the first line was, "I am AMAZING."
Because I feel like during my lifetime my body has been the physical battleground for a turf war - and I am ready to reclaim it in peace.
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FireSprite, my dear, dear friend. I love you.
When you share of yourself, you give such a gift to me. To others here. May you receive back in multitudes this love, es&h, and the spirit of that you give. I'm so very happy for you!!
When you share of yourself, you give such a gift to me. To others here. May you receive back in multitudes this love, es&h, and the spirit of that you give. I'm so very happy for you!!
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The title is mis-leading. It doesn't seem spoiling or frivolous at all.
Another part of the journey of uncovering hurts and wounds. Of healing. Of finding you beyond those things.
Whether you do this or not, you are very brave, not vain.
Another part of the journey of uncovering hurts and wounds. Of healing. Of finding you beyond those things.
Whether you do this or not, you are very brave, not vain.
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Originally Posted by FireSprite
Any of you with ACoA backgrounds will totally relate to how difficult it is to spend money on myself. How that translates to the feeling that I'm doing something "wrong" or "bad".
You deserve it! TREAT YO-SELF.
I'll try to do the same
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Thanks guys, I go in tomorrow for my first treatment & I'm beyond excited at this point. 
I had to reschedule last week because my car broke down. It's STILL a problem & actually in the shop as we speak - for about the next 48 hours,
. The old me would've taken this is as a sign that something as superficial as this needs to be cancelled. No matter how good of a deal, I would never indulge with such a big, unplanned expense popping up like this.
But the new me says, Eff It. This isn't a sign from my HP that I should cancel, it's a test of my commitment to myself to see if I will, again, martyr myself to the back burner. I'm not backing out on my promise to Me this time. Just like I have always made it happen for everyone else, for every reason, I'll do it for Me this time.
I'll be using the quiet session time to meditate on my goals - which, you all know, involve ridding myself of my emotional attachment to food.
In addition to my yoga & meditation practices, I've been learning the mudras & other components so I'm going to use the kubera mudra during my meditation. Time to rework some internal wiring..... wish me luck!
I had to reschedule last week because my car broke down. It's STILL a problem & actually in the shop as we speak - for about the next 48 hours,
. The old me would've taken this is as a sign that something as superficial as this needs to be cancelled. No matter how good of a deal, I would never indulge with such a big, unplanned expense popping up like this.But the new me says, Eff It. This isn't a sign from my HP that I should cancel, it's a test of my commitment to myself to see if I will, again, martyr myself to the back burner. I'm not backing out on my promise to Me this time. Just like I have always made it happen for everyone else, for every reason, I'll do it for Me this time.
I'll be using the quiet session time to meditate on my goals - which, you all know, involve ridding myself of my emotional attachment to food.
In addition to my yoga & meditation practices, I've been learning the mudras & other components so I'm going to use the kubera mudra during my meditation. Time to rework some internal wiring..... wish me luck!
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Originally Posted by FireSprite
I have absolutely zero comfort when it comes to spoiling myself in big ways. Oh, sure, I spend a lot of time & energy on myself - but money? No. There is ALWAYS a greater need in my world & never a great reason to spend what I don't HAVE to. Especially without a coupon, ha!
Any of you with ACoA backgrounds will totally relate to how difficult it is to spend money on myself. How that translates to the feeling that I'm doing something "wrong" or "bad".
But today I had a Carpe Diem moment & I used part of my bonus to buy a package of 8 laser lipo treatments to help me do some body sculpting following my recent weight loss. I've been working SO HARD physically & emotionally to change my body, my mental habits & my emotions related to food. I've been researching & thinking about this for a long time & an even longer time ago I swore to myself that if I ever got into shape again I would do "something" to help with the cosmetic part of the weight loss - targeting specific areas & helping with skin toning/tightening. Today I made good on my promise to me.
I'm SO excited! I have my first appt Thursday afternoon & after talking with the tech at the spa, I'm even more convinced that this is the right type of procedure for me with where I'm at right now with my weight loss.
Any of you with ACoA backgrounds will totally relate to how difficult it is to spend money on myself. How that translates to the feeling that I'm doing something "wrong" or "bad".
But today I had a Carpe Diem moment & I used part of my bonus to buy a package of 8 laser lipo treatments to help me do some body sculpting following my recent weight loss. I've been working SO HARD physically & emotionally to change my body, my mental habits & my emotions related to food. I've been researching & thinking about this for a long time & an even longer time ago I swore to myself that if I ever got into shape again I would do "something" to help with the cosmetic part of the weight loss - targeting specific areas & helping with skin toning/tightening. Today I made good on my promise to me.
I'm SO excited! I have my first appt Thursday afternoon & after talking with the tech at the spa, I'm even more convinced that this is the right type of procedure for me with where I'm at right now with my weight loss.
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