Made past the 6PM witching hour
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Made past the 6PM witching hour
22 hours under my belt and things are looking up!
I visited a caring family doctor today. He said go to AA every single day and he wants me back in on Friday morning. He said for the first month, he wants to stay engaged closely. Meeting him once a week. He gave me a prescription to help with the anxiety. It works. I took a quarter of the pill to start at noon today. That worked pretty well. Tonight, I took a half pill and it seems to do the trick well.
I will also stay in conversation with the psychologist for help with managing any noise in the mind. I went and found my AA location and it is a sweet little White House, clean and comfortable. Looking forward to get started there.
Last night as recommended by the group, I watched hours of AA videos. AA Steps 1,2 and 3. Looking to watch steps 4 and 5. Thank so much group!!
I visited a caring family doctor today. He said go to AA every single day and he wants me back in on Friday morning. He said for the first month, he wants to stay engaged closely. Meeting him once a week. He gave me a prescription to help with the anxiety. It works. I took a quarter of the pill to start at noon today. That worked pretty well. Tonight, I took a half pill and it seems to do the trick well.
I will also stay in conversation with the psychologist for help with managing any noise in the mind. I went and found my AA location and it is a sweet little White House, clean and comfortable. Looking forward to get started there.
Last night as recommended by the group, I watched hours of AA videos. AA Steps 1,2 and 3. Looking to watch steps 4 and 5. Thank so much group!!
Congrats on your direction.
AA meetings in your future. Went to 2 so far. Great meeting like minded folks that are working the steps
Been reading the BB tonight a bit. Chaps 2,3, and 4.
Great read.
I started out saying ODAT. Now I say never drink again.
What ever works.
AA meetings in your future. Went to 2 so far. Great meeting like minded folks that are working the steps
Been reading the BB tonight a bit. Chaps 2,3, and 4.
Great read.
I started out saying ODAT. Now I say never drink again.
What ever works.
Good for you newstart.....sounds like you have a great doctor. Remember that the first days are tough but the difficulty passes and it gets easier. You are doing great...take it a day at a time and soon you will be feeling great.
Sounds like you're doing great (and congrats on finding such a good doctor!!)
The 12 and 12 is a great accompaniment to the Big Book for understanding steps in more detail - might be worth taking at a look at the first three.
Living Sober is also a very helpful AA publication.
Keep going And good luck at your meeting - are you going tomorrow?
The 12 and 12 is a great accompaniment to the Big Book for understanding steps in more detail - might be worth taking at a look at the first three.
Living Sober is also a very helpful AA publication.
Keep going And good luck at your meeting - are you going tomorrow?
Awesome job. But if I may, watch out for those pills. I know you took less than 1 the first day, but gradually you will need more and more for the same affect. I would say only take them when you REALLY need them, and that may be for the first few days/weeks. HOWEVER, save yourself enough to wean off of them. Your body will get use to them after a few weeks, and you WILL notice when you dont take them. I was hooked on ativan for YEARS because I used it for anxiety. I wasnt supposed to take them for as long as I did. Just be on the lookout for addictive behavior when it comes to those.
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Awesome job. But if I may, watch out for those pills. I know you took less than 1 the first day, but gradually you will need more and more for the same affect. I would say only take them when you REALLY need them, and that may be for the first few days/weeks. HOWEVER, save yourself enough to wean off of them. Your body will get use to them after a few weeks, and you WILL notice when you dont take them. I was hooked on ativan for YEARS because I used it for anxiety. I wasnt supposed to take them for as long as I did. Just be on the lookout for addictive behavior when it comes to those.
I'm good and confident, which is great. My doctor already made it clear that has no interest in refilling this prescription and so the purpose is to soften the really bad points for the first few months. He gave me 50 pills and I hope to not even use all of these. Thanks again for calling attention.
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48 Hrs Sober in 2 short hours!
Well my first night that I made it through was tough, but manageable with some anxiety relief. The next two days went really well with very little anxiety, so medicine was not needed. Today was a little more stressful at work, but I took no medicine. This evening, home alone on a Friday night when I would absolutely be drinking and more than typical because it's the weekend. Tension was a little concerning, so I did take a half pill to soften that. As I noted, I plan to get away from the pills as quickly as possible. Going through a week or so and learning what to expect will help.
I have AA at 7AM tomorrow. And daily, I have the following prayer and reminder notes to reference quickly from my Smart phone:
"God, I offer myself to You to build with me and do with me what You will. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Your will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Your power, Your Love, and Your way of life. May I do Your will always."
Fact: The feeling is so shortlived
- it's ridiculously short lived.
- it is NOT worth it.
Fact: Hours after are totally wasted.
Fact: It controls your mind.
- daily it can create tension
- daily it can cause agitation
- daily it can impact my relationships
- daily it IS in control
Fact: It is not a right, it is NOT necessary.
Fact: I can not live Gods word with it.
Fact: My wife was right.
So, I wanted to recall those things that were in my mind that made me decide to quit. I can reference this when reading my morning prayer.
To note, I have been searching out God for 10 years. Regular church attendence and bible school. Reading the Bible. I can say that I absolutely believe what is written and it makes sense. A skeptical guy myself, I removed my doubt through this search. What I had not been able to do was feel like I had the ability to hear God, nor did I see he was impacting my life directly.
Last week as I laid down to bed, I was really down, near breakdown about how I wanted to end my drinking because of how I had come to feel about it. I cried and I prayed to God to help me. I didn't hear anything that night. The next day thinking about my concern, I came to an unbelievable perspective that is completely contrary to my life long perspective. I have always been protective of my right to drink. Seriously. On that day my mind clearly let go and I said I don't need alchohol. I don't need it ever. Wow. I breathed easier already.
Not only that, I immediately found and arranged for a Phsycologist and also followed that with setting up a doctors appointment.
I can tell, that was not me. That is not what I would have done. Yes, for the first time in my life, I had God personally lead me. That feels good. And what's funny is I didn't realize it until after I had done that all. The Phsycologist even asked about my religion and I shared that I want to but had not yet communicated with God. I laugh now.
Thanks to all for your support and feedback. I know it is four short days and there will be trials ahead. I try to prepare in advance for that and my notes and prayer on my phone is one way. Would love other ideas.
I have AA at 7AM tomorrow. And daily, I have the following prayer and reminder notes to reference quickly from my Smart phone:
"God, I offer myself to You to build with me and do with me what You will. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Your will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Your power, Your Love, and Your way of life. May I do Your will always."
Fact: The feeling is so shortlived
- it's ridiculously short lived.
- it is NOT worth it.
Fact: Hours after are totally wasted.
Fact: It controls your mind.
- daily it can create tension
- daily it can cause agitation
- daily it can impact my relationships
- daily it IS in control
Fact: It is not a right, it is NOT necessary.
Fact: I can not live Gods word with it.
Fact: My wife was right.
So, I wanted to recall those things that were in my mind that made me decide to quit. I can reference this when reading my morning prayer.
To note, I have been searching out God for 10 years. Regular church attendence and bible school. Reading the Bible. I can say that I absolutely believe what is written and it makes sense. A skeptical guy myself, I removed my doubt through this search. What I had not been able to do was feel like I had the ability to hear God, nor did I see he was impacting my life directly.
Last week as I laid down to bed, I was really down, near breakdown about how I wanted to end my drinking because of how I had come to feel about it. I cried and I prayed to God to help me. I didn't hear anything that night. The next day thinking about my concern, I came to an unbelievable perspective that is completely contrary to my life long perspective. I have always been protective of my right to drink. Seriously. On that day my mind clearly let go and I said I don't need alchohol. I don't need it ever. Wow. I breathed easier already.
Not only that, I immediately found and arranged for a Phsycologist and also followed that with setting up a doctors appointment.
I can tell, that was not me. That is not what I would have done. Yes, for the first time in my life, I had God personally lead me. That feels good. And what's funny is I didn't realize it until after I had done that all. The Phsycologist even asked about my religion and I shared that I want to but had not yet communicated with God. I laugh now.
Thanks to all for your support and feedback. I know it is four short days and there will be trials ahead. I try to prepare in advance for that and my notes and prayer on my phone is one way. Would love other ideas.
Wow - 7am meeting??!! They start their sobriety early in your neck of the woods!!
Sounds like some pretty big thoughts and feelings have been occurring - you must be exhausted If there is a Big Book or 12 and 12 Study group in your area, I think you would enjoy that. At mine last night we looked at Step 3 http://www.aa.org/assets/en_US/en_step3.pdf and shared on that. That being said, there was little mention of a Christian God in that group, but it was good to hear people's thoughts on it all. One man said, he has an image of an elephant, and himself hanging off the elephant's tail, trying to make it go HIS way. One day he was just too tired and despairing to keep hanging on the elephants tail and he let go. And he realised that its Gods job to steer the elephants. And steers them better than he could have done. I quite liked that analogy. I think I've hung on a few elephant tails myself in the past .
Sounds like some pretty big thoughts and feelings have been occurring - you must be exhausted If there is a Big Book or 12 and 12 Study group in your area, I think you would enjoy that. At mine last night we looked at Step 3 http://www.aa.org/assets/en_US/en_step3.pdf and shared on that. That being said, there was little mention of a Christian God in that group, but it was good to hear people's thoughts on it all. One man said, he has an image of an elephant, and himself hanging off the elephant's tail, trying to make it go HIS way. One day he was just too tired and despairing to keep hanging on the elephants tail and he let go. And he realised that its Gods job to steer the elephants. And steers them better than he could have done. I quite liked that analogy. I think I've hung on a few elephant tails myself in the past .
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