Cracking up! utter mess!
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Cracking up! utter mess!
Hey all been a while since I logged on here, hope you are all keeping well.
Not sure how to word this but I will try my best ok!
Was doing really well sobriety wise was on day 20 or something which for me is a big achievement, anyhows I went over to stay at my friends house for two weeks as he has just lost his mother months back, so trying to be a good friend. He argues like cat and dog tho ALL the time and it just brought me right down into a nervous WRECK! I was stupid and through my own fault I broke my sobriety ( which I have started back up today ) I went on a 3 week binge, then stopped for a few days and then back on it, now stopped again!
I am back home now and I feel like I am cracking up, am I having a nervous break down? I am having panic attack after panic attack! I am CONSTANTLY feeling a sense of dread and my legs are shaking so bad that they are aching to the point it hurts and I feel like I am going crazy in my mind like I am losing touch with reality, I feel like I am not really here, I broke down sobbing yesterday as I could not stand it anymore, it subsided for a bit after that but its back now with avengance!
I have decided not to hang around with my friend anymore, he just argues and argues and manipulates etc ( even before his mom died)
My therapist was just well....... unprofessional in my opinion!
I have pregabalin pills in my house that was prescribed to me so I shall give them a go today!
Am I goona be ok? anyone ever experienced this or worse?
Any advice would be greatly appreciated as I am TERRIFIED that I am losing it!
Not picking up a drink that I can do and am now doing!
Anyone ever recovered from a nervous breakdown?
Not sure how to word this but I will try my best ok!
Was doing really well sobriety wise was on day 20 or something which for me is a big achievement, anyhows I went over to stay at my friends house for two weeks as he has just lost his mother months back, so trying to be a good friend. He argues like cat and dog tho ALL the time and it just brought me right down into a nervous WRECK! I was stupid and through my own fault I broke my sobriety ( which I have started back up today ) I went on a 3 week binge, then stopped for a few days and then back on it, now stopped again!
I am back home now and I feel like I am cracking up, am I having a nervous break down? I am having panic attack after panic attack! I am CONSTANTLY feeling a sense of dread and my legs are shaking so bad that they are aching to the point it hurts and I feel like I am going crazy in my mind like I am losing touch with reality, I feel like I am not really here, I broke down sobbing yesterday as I could not stand it anymore, it subsided for a bit after that but its back now with avengance!
I have decided not to hang around with my friend anymore, he just argues and argues and manipulates etc ( even before his mom died)
My therapist was just well....... unprofessional in my opinion!
I have pregabalin pills in my house that was prescribed to me so I shall give them a go today!
Am I goona be ok? anyone ever experienced this or worse?
Any advice would be greatly appreciated as I am TERRIFIED that I am losing it!
Not picking up a drink that I can do and am now doing!
Anyone ever recovered from a nervous breakdown?
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Hi Chilled
sorry you're struggling right now.
If your anxiety is at the stage where you can no longer walk your dog, I think you may want to consider some professional help?
If in your opinion your therapist was unprofessional , can you find another?
The one thing you must absolutely do is stay sober. Drinking will only perpetuate this.
Take care,
D
sorry you're struggling right now.
If your anxiety is at the stage where you can no longer walk your dog, I think you may want to consider some professional help?
If in your opinion your therapist was unprofessional , can you find another?
The one thing you must absolutely do is stay sober. Drinking will only perpetuate this.
Take care,
D
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Originally Posted by MythOfSisyphus 
Sorry to hear that, Chilledice. I hope you can get back on the wagon and get some positive stuff going!
I want this feeling of madness in my mind to go! just constant feeling of being on edge!
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Hi Chilled
sorry you're struggling right now.
If your anxiety is at the stage where you can no longer walk your dog, I think you may want to consider some professional help?
If in your opinion your therapist was unprofessional , can you find another?
The one thing you must absolutely do is stay sober. Drinking will only perpetuate this.
Take care,
D
sorry you're struggling right now.
If your anxiety is at the stage where you can no longer walk your dog, I think you may want to consider some professional help?
If in your opinion your therapist was unprofessional , can you find another?
The one thing you must absolutely do is stay sober. Drinking will only perpetuate this.
Take care,
D
There are local therapists near me to which I am looking into , I just gotta get the courage to leave the darn house and go talk to them.
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How long ago did you stop drinking this time around?
It could just be the things that the brain goes through while drying out and your brain chemistry is out of wack.
Some people experience some really bad anxiety when quitting and I was like you. When I quit, I would panic if someone even came to the door, let alone venturing outside.
If it's that bad, give your doc a call and talk with them for some suggestions.
I'm sorry you're having a rough time
It could just be the things that the brain goes through while drying out and your brain chemistry is out of wack.
Some people experience some really bad anxiety when quitting and I was like you. When I quit, I would panic if someone even came to the door, let alone venturing outside.
If it's that bad, give your doc a call and talk with them for some suggestions.
I'm sorry you're having a rough time
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Originally Posted by Aarryckha
How long ago did you stop drinking this time around?
It could just be the things that the brain goes through while drying out and your brain chemistry is out of wack.
Some people experience some really bad anxiety when quitting and I was like you. When I quit, I would panic if someone even came to the door, let alone venturing outside.
If it's that bad, give your doc a call and talk with them for some suggestions.
I'm sorry you're having a rough time
It could just be the things that the brain goes through while drying out and your brain chemistry is out of wack.
Some people experience some really bad anxiety when quitting and I was like you. When I quit, I would panic if someone even came to the door, let alone venturing outside.
If it's that bad, give your doc a call and talk with them for some suggestions.
I'm sorry you're having a rough time
I stopped drinking yesterday, I had a 3 week HEAVY binge then stopped for a few days then drank lightly for a few days and today is day 1! Thanks for the support I really do appreciate it!
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Originally Posted by Chilledice
I stopped drinking yesterday, I had a 3 week HEAVY binge then stopped for a few days then drank lightly for a few days and today is day 1! Thanks for the support I really do appreciate it!
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Hey Chille.... Sorry to hear that but hey ho, been there so many times... It will get better.. Obviously like most here, a Quack is recommended.. We do seem to forget the withdrawal effects & each time think we are dying.. Sure you know the routine!! Plenty of water, if you can get out, Tesco do this Smart Water which has added electrolytes which will help. Like Gatorade but without all the other nasty ingredients... hang in there fella... We are all rooting for you...
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Yeah I had a pretty severe nervous breakdown over last Year, lasted maybe five months. I've recovered, and got sober in the process, so it's doable 
But if you've only just quit again, it could just be withdrawals mixed with anxiety. Yeah, fresh air helps. Get lots of exercise outdoors
And don't drink!
But if you've only just quit again, it could just be withdrawals mixed with anxiety. Yeah, fresh air helps. Get lots of exercise outdoors
And don't drink!
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My withdrawal this last time included terrible, terrible anxiety and panic attacks too, Chilledice. The whole week before I quit I was afraid to go outside. Then afterwards I had a panic attack that was so bad that I thought I was actually dying, in that moment. It was terrifying. When I hear certain sounds it reminds me of it, and I get this momentary heart drop when I get even the faintest recollection of how I felt.
Good news is I'm two months sober now and I haven't had a single panic attack since I finished withdrawals... and although anxiety comes and goes, it's nothing at all like what it was then. You can get through this. And don't be afraid to get medical help if it's needed. I ended up going to a professional detox and it helped a lot to know that I was physically going to be safe.
Good news is I'm two months sober now and I haven't had a single panic attack since I finished withdrawals... and although anxiety comes and goes, it's nothing at all like what it was then. You can get through this. And don't be afraid to get medical help if it's needed. I ended up going to a professional detox and it helped a lot to know that I was physically going to be safe.
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