Fell again
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Fell again
I was doing so well, nearly three months without a drink and I broke the rule of not one drink, I've spent most the last week drinking everyday.
I don't want to do this any more, I don't want to live this way😢
I don't want to do this any more, I don't want to live this way😢
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The actor Robert Downey Jr. once said in the middle of a summer, "I'm not going to have a drink today, because I have plans for Christmas."
As an alcoholic, I truly understand that statement.
I found that in order to quit for good, I needed some face to face support. AA filled the role for me, perhaps you should give it a try.
As an alcoholic, I truly understand that statement.
I found that in order to quit for good, I needed some face to face support. AA filled the role for me, perhaps you should give it a try.
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I know I can't have one. It just breaks the seal and I have trouble stopping. I got some bad news and used it as an excuse thinking it's fine just this once. I know this to be compleatly untrue because I've done it before!
The seed was planted in my head the Friday before I started drinking again in the Sunday, seeing people sitting in a nice bar wishing I could do that. At least I can see what triggered it!
I've booked in with a therapist who specialises in Alcohol counseling and committed to at least six sessions.
I am committing my self before God and every one here today to a life time of sobriety. From this day forward I will not drink again, ever!
The seed was planted in my head the Friday before I started drinking again in the Sunday, seeing people sitting in a nice bar wishing I could do that. At least I can see what triggered it!
I've booked in with a therapist who specialises in Alcohol counseling and committed to at least six sessions.
I am committing my self before God and every one here today to a life time of sobriety. From this day forward I will not drink again, ever!
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No drinking today. Had eleven or so beers yesterday but I've been to bed. I've discovered that I can drink beer without getting falling down drunk like wine.
I can't believe I threw away a three month quit (I stopped smoking as well) my life has been going so well. Now I'm sitting in bed when I should be in work.
I can't believe I threw away a three month quit (I stopped smoking as well) my life has been going so well. Now I'm sitting in bed when I should be in work.
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I'm also coming to the realisation that I won't be able to drink again either. There is no "off switch" for me-I drink until I feel sick or pass out..
You can do this Kamie.. One day at a time
You can do this Kamie.. One day at a time
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Originally Posted by Nic233 
I'm also coming to the realisation that I won't be able to drink again either. There is no "off switch" for me-I drink until I feel sick or pass out..
You can do this Kamie.. One day at a time
You can do this Kamie.. One day at a time
I've really been enjoying life without the booze. I've been healthy, eating well. Working paying my debts off and it's all gone to pot. Thank God it was only a week this time, it could have been months!
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Hi Kamie
I spent so many hungover days in bed too. All day in and out feeling so much self loathing, sickness and deflation. Ignoring the phone, avoiding people and missing out on life. I would vow never to do it again only to pick up a drink the next day when I was feeling better.
Take it a day at a time. Tell yourself no matter what, you will not drink today. You do not have to live like this anymore. You can be the one in control. Stay strong!
I spent so many hungover days in bed too. All day in and out feeling so much self loathing, sickness and deflation. Ignoring the phone, avoiding people and missing out on life. I would vow never to do it again only to pick up a drink the next day when I was feeling better.
Take it a day at a time. Tell yourself no matter what, you will not drink today. You do not have to live like this anymore. You can be the one in control. Stay strong!
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Thank you all, your all amazing. I was praying and telling God how sorry I was yet again when all of a sudden bam, I'm up out of bed and cleaning the house. I had a shower and went to the shops for food and made a mean curry for dinner. I hadn't eaten properly for three days because I had no food in and I could be bothered to go but I could be bothered to go the bottle shop 😏 I've just had another shower and washed my hair. It feels good to be laying on clean bed linen. I actually feel I achieved things today!
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Originally Posted by Kamie1
We are the ones that cannot drink again ever. It's just a fact! Not even one, because if you manage to control your drinking with just that one, you think you have this licked, but you don't. It will turn and bite you in the bum so hard.
I've really been enjoying life without the booze. I've been healthy, eating well. Working paying my debts off and it's all gone to pot. Thank God it was only a week this time, it could have been months!
I've really been enjoying life without the booze. I've been healthy, eating well. Working paying my debts off and it's all gone to pot. Thank God it was only a week this time, it could have been months!
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Great job on coming right back here and starting again Kamie. Remember, you haven't lost anything as long as you get back on track. It took me the better part of a year to get back on track after my last relapse.
Lean on us as much as you need, especially if you feel like you are going to cave. Give us time to help, we are here to help each other.
Lean on us as much as you need, especially if you feel like you are going to cave. Give us time to help, we are here to help each other.
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