Ali2013

Home from rehab x forty-something days. Loving living sober.
My relationship with my family was improving ten-fold.
Felt so confident, I quit my job. Time off in between jobs.
Drank today. BOOM. Lost my husband. My daughter loses
her dad. Family is gone. Home is gone. I have to move out
this week. I was so happy with my sober life. I ****** it up.
The saddest part is my daughter is about to have her life
turned upside down. I am not drunk. But I drank. And for that,
my child loses her father. Believe me, people, it is not worth it.

Hope2014

Ali
I'm sorry to hear this happened, but you can turn it around. Move forward and start day 1 tomorrow. Stick around here for support. You had a slip but it doesn't take those 40 days from you. You know that you can do this because you have. Just don't pick up another drink.

Ali2013

I won't pick up again. It is over.
Thank you.

ScottFromWI

Sorry to hear that Ali. Your daughter can still have a you. even if you don't live with her...please be strong and get back to that good place you were for the past several weeks.

silentrun

I'm sorry Ali. What's to happen won't be made better by drinking. I'm glad you said you are done and not use this as a reason to drink more. Hugs to you.

Time2Rise

Hi Ali, you can get back on the wagon, and I believe you can reclaim your life. Why did your daughter lose her father? If she is staying with you why can't she visit him or he visit her?

Ileana

So Ali- what happen today? Why did you drink?
Were you over confident that you could just have 1?
Were you having a bad day and reached for a drink to calm it?
Have you slowly been moving toward having that drink? ie. Not working a program, not doing counseling, not contacting your sponsor?
Helping to figure out why may help to prevent a future relapse.

Ali2013

All of the above except for the bad day part.
The day was great. To be honest, I knew it was
coming. I did not get drunk. Just drank. I knew I
would, just to test the waters. The waters suck.
The far-reaching effects are devastating.

advbike

Sounds very dramatic. If you had 40 days, why did your husband leave? Did he give you an ultimatum?

Ali2013

It is not that dramatic. He is just done. He has given me his wedding ring and wants me to move out. I drank. He is done. Pretty simple. Gut-wrenching. But simple.

Dee74

I am sorry Ali.
Like others have said, you will find support & understanding here

stay close - and welcome back

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Soberwolf

Glad your with us

bexxed

It's good you came here. One foot in front of the other. You slipped. You can get back up.

Meraviglioso

I am so sorry Ali. You must be feeling terrible right now. My advice would be to get straight back to work on your recovery, it is one thing you have control over. Get to an AA meeting or some other meeting, seek out help in any way you can. Show your family you are serious about this.

brighterlife

Ali
All is not lost....you are still willing to try. I don't think many people got truly sober on the first attempt. It's taking me a few!
I'm so sorry you slipped. Pick yourself up and try again. What are you going to change this time to ensure it doesn't happen again? Try joining the class of September and post often.

Berrybean

So sorry that you, your husband, daughter and rest of your family are going through this

It sounds like you need to do some work on your recovery quick-smart. Rehab only teaches you things that can help - when you come out the onus is on people to continue that work. For as long as the addiction is still there. Which in the case of alcoholism is probably for the rest of your life. Did you draw up a sobriety plan while in rehab? If so, get it out, read it and act on it. Please. If not then now is probably a pretty good time to start making one.

goose333

Stay strong. Perhaps in a few months, he'll see you are serious and come back.

PurpleKnight

Welcome back Ali!!

Go at things again and draw a line under alcohol for good!!