mary2788

I was just here texting with a close friend of mine who is talking about moving back home.. we use to get together when he was on his days off and get wasted and stay up all night partying. This isn't my life anymore. But I just got this huge wave of the desire and the thoughts that maybe I can party just one more time. I came here immediately..
I ave one month on Saturday and I don't want to throw it all away but this is so hard.

Dee74

I had a few moments like that - and the fear that things were changing and I might never be happy or have fun again...

it's all inner addict nonsense, Mary

I have never regretted changing my life.
It was a change for the better

D

mary2788

I know, I hate these inner fights with myself.
Those urges are so scary and so overwhelming.
My family who I am staying with during this journey is leaving for a week on Wedsneday which also terrifies me because I will be alone for the first time since I started recovery ; /
They don't drink so there isn't anything here thank god!

RustyBanjo

Had that feeling yesterday. Stay vigilant.

Dee74

I was scared of being alone too but I got used to it
I really like 'me time' now

D

Soberwolf

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

You can print these Mary they are good in times of urges & cravings