WalleyeHunter

Hi my name is Jordan and I'm a binge drinker...or should I say was? I'm 63 days sober and it feels good to mark another day off every day on my calendar. My Mom was an alcoholic and it played a role in her death (heart attack). I would drink to the point of blacking out and collapsing on the floor. I have bipolar disorder and anxiety. I guess I did it because I felt like I couldn't take it anymore. It scares me to vision myself blacked out on the floor after drinking a bottle of rum.

It scares me to think that I ended up like my Mother who was a good person and had Mental Health problems but never got treatment. I did and I still did. I almost ruined my relationship with my fiancee and that's why I decided I had to put the bottle up for good. I get anxious whenever I see alcohol and when I'm around it. Anyways thanks for listening and I look forward to meeting some of you.

Anna

Congratulations on 63 days sober, Jordan. That's fantastic. And, good for you for dealing with your bipolar and alcoholism. I think your mother would be glad to know that you are taking care of yourself.

SoberLeigh

Welcome to SR, WalleyeHunter, and congratulations on 63 sober days.

I am sorry that Mom was not able to find sobriety. I believe that alcoholism contributed to my father's early death, too.

It is great that you are taking such positive steps towards a healthy future.

WalleyeHunter

Thanks Anna. I never viewed it like that. I'm unfortunately a negative person and sometimes need others to point out the positives so thank you. It hasn't been easy... There have been times when I've wanted to but I've held off.

WalleyeHunter

Thanks Leigh. I'm sorry to hear that it possibly contributed to your fathers passing as well. It was hard to see your parent or parents struggle with something like that and you couldn't help them no matter what you did. Thank you very much for the positive words

SoberLeigh

It was hard; it wasn't until many years later, after I too had succumbed to alcoholism, that I truly understood the battle he was fighting.

Hevyn

Welcome Walleye - we're so glad to have you here. We're a friendly group who truly understand what you're going through. I felt all alone until I came here - I think it'll really help you too.

least

Welcome! And congrats on over two months sober!

soberclover

Awesome job on your sobriety! Glad you are here

WalleyeHunter

I didn't understand it either until I struggled with it as well Leigh. I guess all we can do is honor there memory by continuing to be sober for them and remembering the good times we did share with them as well.

WalleyeHunter

Thank you for the welcome Hevyn . I'm glad to be here and hope to gain some new friends and strengthen my sobriety in the process.

WalleyeHunter

Thank you Clover . I'm glad to be here.

Dharma33

Hi! Welcome to SR, and congrats on your 63 days! You will find a lot of support here with your decision to quit drinking.

WalleyeHunter

Thanks Least! It's been tough at times but I'm getting there.

WalleyeHunter

Hi Dharma and thank you! It will be nice to have the support and also support others.

Soberwolf

Welcome