notgonnastoptry

I haven't been having cravings or anything over the last month. I've been sober for over a month and have not relapsed. Today, I'm so stressed out that I can't even function. I want to be numb and get away from my head.

I am fighting with everyone in my life. It's not related alcohol, just general stuff.

I don't think I'll take that step, but I need support.

Anna

Can you take a break and go outside and walk for a bit? Or can you get away to a room by yourself and just be quiet for a few minutes? Congratulations on a month of sobriety. Don't lose it now. You can get through this.

Bellamiaa

I'm in the same boat as you. No craving but today was hard for some reason. I'm taking it 15 mins at a time tonight. You should too. Do something. Anything to keep your mind off of drinking. For me it's coffee and posting here you can do it!

Dee74

There's tons of help here notgonnastoptry

Have you looked at this link at all?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...44-stress.html

notgonnastoptry

Thanks, everyone. I will check that out. There's no reason for me to blow it now for the others in my life. I've run the tape through til the end and I can't see any good coming out of what would be a very temporary relief. I'd be chasing liquor like a cat chasing its tail.

Bellamiaa

Exactly! Temporary relief followed by regret tomorrow.

notgonnastoptry

I wanted to check in and say I did not drink.

this makes no sense, but I almost wish I didn't have such strong will power and went to the liquor store. I don't expect anyone to understand those thoughts, but I just can't bring myself to start the process again and some weird part of me wishes I would just go and get that half pint. Intellectually, I'm glad I didn't go. On some raw emotional level, I wish the numbness was still part of my life.

wehav2day

Try,

I found over time that the "not related to alcohol" problems in my life really had something to so with alcohol or were at least made worse because of my drinking. I found things were more connected than I thought...

When we stop drinking, all the crap in our lives is still there. The trick is to change within ourselves so that the crap doesn't make us drink. Do you have any face to face support? Hanging out with people in the same boat as you can really help.

Good job not drinking today!

Soberwolf

You done great Try