thomas11

Yesterday I posted that I was ruminating the thought of having a few drinks here and there. The feedback I received was needed and appreciated. Some of them detailing previous posts hit hard. I was amazed that many ended their post with "don't do it, but if you do, we'll be here. Amazing generosity. I had a little trouble getting to sleep last night, and woke up this morning feeling ok, and it went downhill from there both mentally and physically. I'm thankful it rained so we couldn't work. I took a nap which is not normal for me and just within the last couple hours snapped out of it. I wonder if it is something that subconsciously related to yesterday's post or I just had a low energy day. Almost like I had a touch of the flu. Anyone else have those days that come out of nowhere?

courage2

I think most stuff doesn't really come out of nowhere. You might want to take a look at what you were doing/thinking about when you "snapped out of it", and what you were doing/thinking about when you went down into the "touch of the flu"-- or before that, what had been going on when you started to think about drinking? Sometimes cause-and-effect are confusing/circular.

Dee74

I'm glad you feel better today Jeff

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myjourney111713

Jeff - just remember this...you kind of already knew what feedback you would get. For those of us who haven't made it as far as you have in sobriety, just know that the question and the answers were SO helpful. I'm grateful you posted the question. Lots of wisdom was shared in the responses.

Glad you took a nap...sleep can be so healing. 😊

zjw

yeah I feel like i run on the sunshine. if its not sunny i'm lethargic and lack energy. I t hink i'm solar powered or something.

But mentally its true tough topics difficult thoughts even a dramatic film etc.. all can affect my sleep cycle. I've found i'm a particularly sensitive person.

Lots of times i cant even handle a high suspense tv show even I used to love them now? it can have me on border line panic attacks. the kicker is sometimes they dont bother but i never know if they will so I try to avoid it.

I dont get it. Put me on the worlds most terrifying roller coaster and I'm estatic and the happiest ever. But put me on the ferris wheel and i panic!

i'm all screwed up what can i say.

wehav2day

Glad you are feeling better, Jeff.

All kinds of wierd stuff happens in early sobriety. I think the term is post acute withdrawal syndrome, or PAWS. Whatever you wanna call it, I had ups and downs for about a year. Then it was like everything started to really normalize, and now everything is pretty even and I can focus on other stuff. Like getting on with having a fun life.

thomas11

It definately came out of left field, I usually have my morning coffee and a bite to eat an I'm ready. And since I have been sober, its been even better. I mentioned it felt like a touch of the flu, but thinking about it a little more, I'm guessing it was more like pure depression. Just wanted to sleep, NOTHING interested me. I wanted to isolate. The bottom line being it stunk. Thank god it lifted. I should be ecstatic right now, been sober for awhile, my braces are off and I'm getting better by the day with regards to my strength and mobility. I just wanted to post because you guys are the only ones I share stuff with.

wehav2day

Personally, I think it's totally normal. Have you heard of the "pink cloud?" It's a term they use in aa for a period many of us experience in early sobriety where "everything is awesome!" Then it ends. I usually had it at six months, but it varies. Until this time, the pink cloud ended and I felt pretty good but kinda sad so I went out and drank. Makes about as much sense in real life as in this post. but that's early sobriety for ya.

If you want life to get better, sometimes quickly sometimes slowly, keep cracking. There will be normal ups and downs, you are smart I post about them. Some f2f support won't hurt either.

If you want life to go to hell in a hand basket again, by all means drink up.

Madruski

Usually when i become really bored, a wave of drowsiness and sadness comes over me - at these waves I always had a few beers no matter what time of day it is. Now when they come over me I try to keep myself busy with something, or just have a nap without the beers

Soberwolf

Glad you feel better Jeff there will be bad days and you done good by getting through a craving

MythOfSisyphus

I'm a "neighbor" Thomas, it rained for two days here, too. I like the rain personally. It's rejuvenating to me. But when you do get low, don't let it define you. Try to remind yourself that we all have lousy days, and it's okay to have a lousy day. It doesn't make a lousy life. There are bad days but things get better.

thomas11

Iv'e read about the pink cloud here, but never really got excited about quitting drinking, I just was pleased with the way I felt and was "ready" for life's challenges everyday. I was NOT ready for life's challenges everyday while drinking, some days I would do the bare minimum. Thanks for the insight.

thomas11

Huh, its funny you mention that because a couple stiff ones was always a little pick me up. Probably still would be. But once again, it would just be another item to add to the list of reasons to drink, I already had plenty.

thomas11

Hi neighbor, I like the rain too. I mean a break. The break used to mean a drinking day, but no longer. I didn't mean to sound whiny the other day , but man, it was bad. a VERY low day. So much better today and nothing has really changed, that's why I was puzzled why this was occurring.