Addiction is like a hamster wheel
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Addiction is like a hamster wheel
My alcoholism emerged two and half years ago. In that time I first tried to moderate. When that didn't work I tried to quit. When that didn't work I started drinking again. When that didn't work I tried to quit. When that didn't work I started drinking again. Lather, rinse, repeat. Insanity. A hamster wheel.
This insane hamster wheel has resulted in the acceptance and realization that I am an alcoholic and that I cannot drink. The interesting thing for me is that the past two and half years were like a time freeze in a lot of ways. The same issues coming up again and again without resolution.
Why are none of my dating situations panning out? Alcohol
Why am I feeling emotionally stuck? Alcohol
Why am I engaged in a cycle of self-destruction? Alcohol
Why do I feel like I'm staying stuck while people around me are moving forward? Alcohol
Alcohol. Always the common denominator. It has taken me two and half years to grasp this. I choose sobriety. I have stepped off the hamster wheel.
This insane hamster wheel has resulted in the acceptance and realization that I am an alcoholic and that I cannot drink. The interesting thing for me is that the past two and half years were like a time freeze in a lot of ways. The same issues coming up again and again without resolution.
Why are none of my dating situations panning out? Alcohol
Why am I feeling emotionally stuck? Alcohol
Why am I engaged in a cycle of self-destruction? Alcohol
Why do I feel like I'm staying stuck while people around me are moving forward? Alcohol
Alcohol. Always the common denominator. It has taken me two and half years to grasp this. I choose sobriety. I have stepped off the hamster wheel.
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Yes , you are right about being stuck. It's like your mind and spirit dies. When I went through my last drunk ( 4 years all day every day )I did nothing but maintain my supply of booze. No growth, dreams , or healing. You are on the right track. Really smart observation.
I am so happy for you and your decision to start moving again.
I am so happy for you and your decision to start moving again.
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