getright15

So I was on a good path. Not drinking, went to AA and just going through my usual daily routine. My wife was proud, I was proud and then the cookie just seems to crumble right in front of you. A little back story I take medications for depression and anxiety. I recent was diagnosed with bipolar 2 years ago. I've tried to quit drinking numerous times doing different things. This last round I thought I was on the right track. Then Saturday we go out with some friends and next thing I know I have a glass in my hand. Sunday we have a little argument about some nonsense then that leads to more drinking. I then call out to work to drink some more. So one bad decision after another right? Gets better so I decide to go to one of the casinos and gamble plus free drinks. I'm on my way home and I blow 2 of my tires less than a mile from my house. My truck is blocking traffic and I can move it. Low and behold the cops come and thats all she wrote. So I get busted for my 3rd DUI. I find it amazing how I find myself in these situations when I'm at AA and listen to people who have driven for 20-30 yrs drunk and have been lucky enough to not get pulled over or in an accident. My wake up call has come and gone and I think I ignored it after my second one. So now I have to deal with this crap that I brought on myself. I feel so ashamed. My wife is telling me to move on and move forward but I cant help but feel ashamed and now I have to work even harder to make ends meet all because of that stupid choice.

I saw my lawyer today and he's dealing with my cases so many things gone wrong during police custody he can get them down to wreckless driving. I just feel sh%%%y about it all because I was doing so well.

bexxed

It does come up very fast. What happened when you were out with friends that made you suddenly have a glass in your hand? Anyway, sorry you've got all of this now. It sounds like your wife has some good ideas. I'd imagine the better thing would be to move on and move forward. It seems like the other option wasn't better than that.

D122y

Sorry. Thanks for the honest life lesson. Working through post drinking anxiety here. Getting better ever day. Feels like 2 steps forward, 1 step back...but getting there.

MythOfSisyphus

I'm sorry you had such a bad time. I hope he can bargain it down but to be frank that will only be a positive if you use the 3rd chance. Bad enough to keep drinking but you have to stop putting others at risk.

It's hard but keep trying, GetItRight!

Soberwolf

This is why having a plan is vital imo

aasharon90

Cunning, Baffling, Powerful. These words
along with many other ones written for us
in recovery are not meant to encore but
to learn from.

These words explain what alcohol or drugs
are to us. They are not pretty words. They
are warning words for us to use and not encore.

It's either all or nothing in recovery if we
choose to be successful or remain sick in
our addiction.

There's no half measures. We cant dabble
a little bit of recovery help and return to
the insanity of our addiction with the expectations
of it staying sober for long periods of time
and yrs to come.

It's all or nothing.

I couldn't remain sober on my own
without the teachings of my addiction
and receiving a program of recovery
to help me remain sober for the past
25 yrs.

Family did an intervention on me placing
me into the hands of those to teach me about
my addiction to alcohol and was given many
vital tools and information to take with me
when I was released.

Those 28 days sober allowed the seed of
recovery to be planted and it was up to
me to continue to feed it, nurture it day
after day with healthier recovery choices
for me to grow and not die.

That little seed has been slowly growing
each day for 25 yrs,. Sure there were times
it began to wilt and it looked as tho it wasn't
gonna make it, so I had to reread my recovery
instructions and apply the right amount of
meetings, big book studies, step studies, to
it to get it perk up.

Each right amount of recovery measurement
applied to my little seed over the yrs has help
it grow strong and healthy.

With each new day my flower, a beautiful
flower blooms with vibrant colors, strong
stem, it also faces weather changes. The
sun, wind, rain, heat, cold. I have to protect
it because I spent many days getting it to
be where it is today.

My recovery flower is mine to protect
against lifes elements. I will do whatever
I need to do to keep it strong and healthy
to the best of my ability.

I feed it with my recovery information,
keep it safe from harm , love it, care for
it so it can continue to give me many
awesome blooms, rewards for taking
good care of it.

That is my recovery as it continues to
give me all that I have put into it over
the years.

MIRecovery

Sorry for all your troubles. I read your whole post and where it all started was being in a drinking situation.

I still avoid drinking situations because I have heard your story 100s of time. For me I just don't trust myself around alcohol and I've been sober for a while

RushTogether

I am truly hoping that this is the wake up call you need. Consider yourself very lucky that you haven't killed someone while driving drunk.

You need to learn to take yourself out of situations that cause you to drink.

Going out with friends? If they are going to a drinking establishment, you don't go. It's quite obvious you can't handle it yet.

The casino? Give it up. Nothing good happens there.

Get to an AA meeting, get some help.

Ruby2

Nothing in life worth having is easy to obtain. Pro athletes don't just walk on the field today and win the championship. They practice every day. Getting and staying sober is the same. I have to practice sobriety every day, paying attention to my physical and mental conditioning. I post on here every day. I reach out to sober friends every day. I attend regular AA meetings.

I'm sorry you're in a rough situation right now. Revamp your plan and work it.

Nonsensical

What I see in your post:
You have a loving wife.
You have a job.
You can afford a lawyer.
You are going to catch a break for a DUI.
You are getting treatment for your depression.
You have friends.

What you see in your post:
I can't drink anymore because I keep getting caught driving drunk and it isn't fair.
(and that's just AV malarkey)

My sober life is as hard as I choose to make it.

Best of Luck on Your Journey

PurpleKnight

Time to draw a line in the sand and make Sobriety your priority.

Your story all starts with going out with friends and then the flood gates open, for me I needed to assess my activities and if it meant staying in for a few weekends to make Sobriety happen then that's what needed to happen.

We need to get into the mind frame of whatever it takes!!

You can do this!!

lilac0721

Ruby, this helps me soooo much, especially since I consider myself a runner. Thanks.

Getitright, I just want to send you a giant hug. You will get through this. Sometimes the toughest moments/trials are our best teachers.

thomas11

Spot on in my opinion. Drinking is doing you no favors, and you have proven you can live without it being you had some sober time. Alcohol has given you another hurdle (DUI) that you need to get over. Might be a good time to put drinking behind you for good. Right?