Aiko

And I think I stop on monday... i only smoked a bit maria that is light.... First chance boon again!

preassure for so long I am cracking!

I bearly rest, eat, discontrol the pills! Anxiety working not stop... Priceless!

And why the hehell I come here to say it??!?!?,!',????!! We will never now...
Am I sick in the head?!?!?!!? You still wonder?!?!?!!?!!

Do I feel better afther I got it out of my chest?!?!!? Priceless

PurpleKnight

Hey Aiko, maybe the reason for coming and posting is deep down you still really want to beat this, and that's a positive thing.

Never give up fighting, SR is in your corner and wants you to succeed!!

Dee74

You can never lose if you never stop fighting Aiko

D

MythOfSisyphus

Hang in there, Aiko!

Soberwolf

Having a plan really helps

IOAA2

Hi.
In looking back the best advice I received was KEEP COMING.

It took awhile until I was sick and tired of being sick and tired to WANT to be a sober person and pursue sobriety.

BE WELL

Aiko

I am still at it... and running out... options...

SoberLeigh

Does it go deeper than anxiety? What is it you are looking for, sweet Aiko? Is there a void you are trying to fill?

It hurts to see you struggling.

Aiko

I can not keep on I am tyred!!!
I bearly stop...
Since I was came out of detox Iover a year ago... non-stop.
And my new job position preassure...
and I keep going... I overdoo all seriously!!

I can not even go near a shop now...........
Nothing calms me down!!!

I do not know why th3049'4293509'235 <i do it?????????????
I keep on trying over again and again... and get in line
do not want to go back to a clinic...

I have no choice but to stop!
This is the tip then it start to take ovet more and more ground.........

trachemys

Aiko, You only lost a battle, not the war. After a relapse comes the restart.

SoberLeigh

It sounds as though you are under a huge amount of stress. Is there any work that you can pass to an associate or delegate to a subordinate?

Have you ever tried meditative yoga?

Aiko

I am sorry I knwo I have to stop now...
I only got one left and that is it...

Some how tomorrow when I am awake I will control myself to do not leave the yellow brick roadddd

Aiko

I really am sick and Tired of Myself...
Is Groundhog Day.....
god is like I am typing outsideeeeeeeeeeeeeeee on the garden...
how weirddddddddddddddddd

Dee74

I'm sorry Aiko. I thought you had some sober time, but maybe not.

If you don't want to go back to the clinic, what other options do you have?

D

Aiko

I spoke to the shrink on the phone yesterday.... bla bla bla
I am suposed to smoke what have on(thank Goddddddddddddddddd uffff)
and FULL STOP
dO NOt get a thing over!!!!!!!!!!!

I am just all the time tense... I need to relaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
can not take anything...

OOOOOOO back in the living room

Aiko

I really hope I do not upset you! I mean it!
I just messed out a little bit and will have to get up again"

SoberLeigh

We care about you, sweet Aiko.

I am glad that you are here to talk about it.

Aiko

O mI finish... that is it!
Got to get till monday some
how..... my god....
pretend to ok!!!

But that is it so escalator-1
no more çç

When I repeat it I try to click it!!!
rest

Aiko

I am really tired today...
I opened the door and lied... Where were you last night???

This does not make me happy either.
is a mirage!

I am not working this weekend, am going to sleep on the beach in a minute.
And I am NOT going to get anything today...
Lets see how long it takes the little devil to wake up starts to go on and on and on until convince me that I need it and fulls stop...

But what I really want is sleep!!!!!!
Got to get ready!
Sorry about my behaviour jet again...

trachemys

Enjoy the beach! When the little devil starts talking, give it ice cream.