Whew... close call with and urge to drink
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Whew... close call with and urge to drink
Hi there,
So today I'm 40 days sober... but I sure was tested today... I've been blessed to have had only 2 urges to drink over the last 40 days.
I've had a terrible time with multiple relapses. Today I'm satisfied to say that I did something different. I talked about it while it was happening. I was fortunate that I was meeting with my therapist and actually told him that I was experiencing an intense desire to drink. He helped me by just talking about it.
After my session with him I then called my sponsor immediately and told her. She said I should feel proud and that I she recognized that I had done something different... by talking about it.
The amazing thing is how weak and vunerable I felt to wanting to escape... take a break... and let the drink take me there. Of course the drink may take me to death. It truly is insane. I felt so out of control... but I managed to have some semblance and made it through... with my HP's help.
I want to live, enjoy the here and now, and see what the future holds for me. If I drink I will shut down a world of possibilites and I will retreat into an alcoholic lonely insane pit.
There is no rational thought behind my desire to drink. If I drink it counter acts the perscriptions I take for bipolar.
I called up a friend and went to a meeting tonight.
The best news is... it passed... and just because I think it doesn't mean I have to drink it.
So, so grateful tonight before I shut my eyes for a well deserved rest that I'm sober. It was a little scary.
Blessings, and thanks for reading my share.
So today I'm 40 days sober... but I sure was tested today... I've been blessed to have had only 2 urges to drink over the last 40 days.
I've had a terrible time with multiple relapses. Today I'm satisfied to say that I did something different. I talked about it while it was happening. I was fortunate that I was meeting with my therapist and actually told him that I was experiencing an intense desire to drink. He helped me by just talking about it.
After my session with him I then called my sponsor immediately and told her. She said I should feel proud and that I she recognized that I had done something different... by talking about it.
The amazing thing is how weak and vunerable I felt to wanting to escape... take a break... and let the drink take me there. Of course the drink may take me to death. It truly is insane. I felt so out of control... but I managed to have some semblance and made it through... with my HP's help.
I want to live, enjoy the here and now, and see what the future holds for me. If I drink I will shut down a world of possibilites and I will retreat into an alcoholic lonely insane pit.
There is no rational thought behind my desire to drink. If I drink it counter acts the perscriptions I take for bipolar.
I called up a friend and went to a meeting tonight.
The best news is... it passed... and just because I think it doesn't mean I have to drink it.
So, so grateful tonight before I shut my eyes for a well deserved rest that I'm sober. It was a little scary.
Blessings, and thanks for reading my share.
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That's super, SeeClear! I think it's a common occurrence for an urge to drink to feel almost instantly overwhelming. That's why so many relapse. The more times we can surf that urge without picking up, the easier it gets.
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Thank you so much for sharing that. I had the same thing happen to me today and I too am grateful to be going to bed sober and to wake tomorrow to a day of possibility as opposed to hopelessness. Good job!
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