mary2788

I have to say that I know things will get better over time... but this blows!
As I previously posted I was suppose to go on a camping trip this weekend but after A LOT of thought I have decided against it.. I know in my gut that if i am around lq I will be beyond tempted maybe even relapse.. I have tried to quit so many times before but this time it need s to stick

I am going to my second AA meeting tonight..

My head is so foggy I dont know who I am anymore because I have numbed myself out for so long..

NestWasEmpty

Oh mary , You did that right thing , knowing your limits is a Good thing
As I logged on I thought about your camping trip & how you were doing .
Keep posting a lot are hear for you

IOAA2

Hi and congratulations on a wise decision.
There is plenty of time to partake is camping after we get a good foundation of not drinking under us.
When I first went to AA there were things I didn’t care for but by sticking with it we learn a lot about not drinking and making contact with others.

BE WELL

biminiblue

Keep going to meetings. The fog will lift. You will get your life back, and your health and your sanity. I was a hot mess, but it is so much better now. It just takes a few weeks or months. Hang on.

One day. Just one day at a time.

MyTime86

Good choice skipping the trip. I almost blew my sobriety on a camping trip when I was at 9 months, thankfully I didn't.
I understand what you are feeling I was so lost and depressed in the beginning, didn't think it would ever get better but like you said it does.
I went to the doctor to get help for my depression and it help greatly, don't be afraid to ask for help.
Take care.

least

I'm glad you didn't risk your sobriety.

Anna

Mary you made the right decision to not go on the camping holiday.

Hopefully your mood will improve soon.

Soberwolf

Mary not only did you make a wise decision thinking it through you then took positive sober action going to a meeting i remember going meetings really early in the early stages of my sobriety when i felt like that helped set up sometimes waiting for someone to turn up being near the rooms really made me feel better

You have made a excellent post that will help many

the numbness will thaw out as time goes on

trachemys

I'll second seeing your doctor. Helped me immensely.

Jmichigan

looks like you're making positive decisions at least. if you can do it I can do it, thx for the inspiration. needed it

ckoures

What a good decision. Good for you.

mary2788

YOU GUYS ROCK.
I feel so loved..

I went to my second meeting so nervous and thinking allthese people are way older than me! Im 27 and was the youngest person there but after opening up and allowing myself to take it in I felt refreshed. I have been fighting with my anxiety about going but once I got there I was fine...

We are w all there for the same reason... and its a heck of a lot better than any situation I have gotten myself into while being drunk!

thank you guys so much!
i am SO glad to be able to come to this website and vent my feelings and fears!