daydreamer0217

as most of you know by now, momma passed away. I am back in NC , left my hometown of SD. It was hard to say goodbye to momma and goodbye to the memories of growing up there, my AX, and everything else. My ex and I have mended fences in a way I guess you could say. When you lose someone that you love very much, it changes your perspective on things. I don't have it in me to be mad at him anymore, or sad even anymore. He was great through my mom's passing. He called, he texted, he was always checking up on me, but doing it from a distance. I am/was appreciative. I have decided he will never give me what I need because he is incapable of it, and that is ok. It doesn't mean I am unlovable, it doesn't mean he rejected me. I don't know if I will continue correspondence with him or not. But I do know that I am done being angry. I won't settle for less than what I deserve. Life is too effin short to be with people who do not make you happy. It really is that simple, let them go... just let them go or let go of the dream... find a new dream, be happy, and love big. and most of all, forgive , forgive yourself and forgive others. no regrets, no grudges. <3

horsegirl

I am so sorry to hear about your mother. I am so happy that you have accepted your relationship the way it is with your ex.
You are an inspiration! be kind to yourself during your time of grief.

biminiblue

Really well said, daydreamer. I find great peace in forgiving and letting go with love.

((hug))

CarmenLove

Thank you Daydreamer.

This is inspiring.

Big hugs and here's to happiness and not settling.

daydreamer0217

yes, here is to happiness. i choose happiness and love over all else.

LexieCat

You sound great. No need to tote a trunk full of bitterness and resentment around, for sure.

Hugs,

NYCDoglvr

My sympathy at the loss of your mother. It sounds like you're on the right path to healing, which takes a while.