Closing out day 3.
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Closing out day 3.
Hey guys and gals. I'm in good spirits. I made my first post yesterday. All the welcoming responses helped so much. Thanks
The baby-mama (wife) :-) just left for an Al-anon meeting. She needs help as well dealing with me. Our whole relationship, 12 years has had the drinking issue. She'd tell me I drank too much and embarrassed her. I'd negotiate new drinking rules and we'd do the dance again and again and again. I'd of course NEVER drink what I agreed to drink. It's all so exhausting, why do I do this?
Why did I do that, I mean. My word is totally shot with her. If I was her and I said something I'd think: "Sure buddy, ." Along with an eye roll. Lol
I'm not one to dwell on the negative past too much(mostly cause I would drink it away) but the point is. I'm ready to put in the work to change my behavior! To earn the value of my word back with her and others! Ive developed a plan. I'm reading The Big Book and Im hitting a couple meetings a week In Addition to seeing my therapist.
We can make life so damn complicated when we are truly happy serving and spending time with those we love. I am anyway.
So as I close out another sober day, I'm hanging w/ my son watching Nick Jr. I envy y'all who can binge out on Netflix. :-)
Lots love SR!
The baby-mama (wife) :-) just left for an Al-anon meeting. She needs help as well dealing with me. Our whole relationship, 12 years has had the drinking issue. She'd tell me I drank too much and embarrassed her. I'd negotiate new drinking rules and we'd do the dance again and again and again. I'd of course NEVER drink what I agreed to drink. It's all so exhausting, why do I do this?
Why did I do that, I mean. My word is totally shot with her. If I was her and I said something I'd think: "Sure buddy, ." Along with an eye roll. Lol
I'm not one to dwell on the negative past too much(mostly cause I would drink it away) but the point is. I'm ready to put in the work to change my behavior! To earn the value of my word back with her and others! Ive developed a plan. I'm reading The Big Book and Im hitting a couple meetings a week In Addition to seeing my therapist.
We can make life so damn complicated when we are truly happy serving and spending time with those we love. I am anyway.
So as I close out another sober day, I'm hanging w/ my son watching Nick Jr. I envy y'all who can binge out on Netflix. :-)
Lots love SR!
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Thanks yall! 2muchpain: Fortunately it hasn't been that rough. I have been able to go a day or two a week with out it.
But the 5 or 6 days a week Id drink anywhere from 8 to 16 beers in a day. 8-10 on weeknights and 16 or so on the weekends. Always alone. Such a lame life to lead.
I will get a pretty good craving tomorrow or for sure on the weekend. So, I'm preparing. Staying positive and remembering how much I'd hate myself in the mornings but more importantly to wake up feeling well rested and not full of guilt.
But the 5 or 6 days a week Id drink anywhere from 8 to 16 beers in a day. 8-10 on weeknights and 16 or so on the weekends. Always alone. Such a lame life to lead.
I will get a pretty good craving tomorrow or for sure on the weekend. So, I'm preparing. Staying positive and remembering how much I'd hate myself in the mornings but more importantly to wake up feeling well rested and not full of guilt.
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