Back at it again!
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Join Date: Dec 2014
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Back at it again!
Hello all! I haven't been on in a while until about the last few weeks. I was part of the class of November 2014 and made it to 72 days sober. That was really the first attempt in my life to admit there was a problem and do something about it. I slipped up in February with just a few drinks and it has been a rocky roller coaster of emotions since. I will go a couple days but that's about it until something provokes my anxiety and the AV gets to me. I recently found myself getting up and drinking in the mornings because I am off of work for a few months and I started to see how I was back to square one again. I hadn't been able to get past the 3 day mark with a vacation to the beach and hanging out with friends until last week. My last drop of alcohol was around noon on July 3rd, so my first free day with out alcohol was the Fourth of July. I am hoping that I will be celebrating my 1yr freedom from alcohol on Independence Day next year. Day 4...... and it feels good to be back!
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It's good to see you back.
The 3 days mark was a big hurdle for me, too. The good thing is, when you get past the 3rd day, you will feel so much more confident about continuing to move on with your recovery.
The 3 days mark was a big hurdle for me, too. The good thing is, when you get past the 3rd day, you will feel so much more confident about continuing to move on with your recovery.
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Thank you! Yes, I think I will always deal with a bit of anxiety as it is just in my nature to worry but I know over time it does get better and I am taking all of the necessary steps this time to calm my mind, body, and soul. Fingers crossed that this is the last time I have to try and quit! 
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Welcome back, I have been back and forth as well. I find myself getting a long stretch of sobriety, and then start drinking again. It is not easy, I keep coming back to SR though, and trying over and over.
I know there is no advice here, just someone who understands and is in the same boat. I will keep fighting until I get it right.
I know there is no advice here, just someone who understands and is in the same boat. I will keep fighting until I get it right.
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Good to hear from some old friends on here 
I feel like the last year has been a learning experience and I am not going to beat myself up too bad about it. I do have a recovery plan and I feel that it will work if I don't pick up the first one. I know what my triggers are, I have supportive people in my life that know the whole situation now, a renewed faith in myself and truly do know that the most peace I have had in my life is when I was sober for almost 2 1/2 months. SR really helped me the most last time when I felt uneasy, so it's my go to now!
I feel like the last year has been a learning experience and I am not going to beat myself up too bad about it. I do have a recovery plan and I feel that it will work if I don't pick up the first one. I know what my triggers are, I have supportive people in my life that know the whole situation now, a renewed faith in myself and truly do know that the most peace I have had in my life is when I was sober for almost 2 1/2 months. SR really helped me the most last time when I felt uneasy, so it's my go to now!
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I joined the class of July today and I will pop in tomorrow and say hello to the November folks! I feel like I actually might be able to sleep tonight I hope everyone has a great sober Friday!
I hope everyone has a great sober Friday!
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Glad you're back in, angd1978. Hope you do go see your old November class. It took me a long, long time to go back to my old July 2013 class but I'm so glad I finally did it as they have become one of my strongest sources of support again.
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