Changes.
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Changes.
So it's been a few weeks now with no drinking 
One of the biggest changes I'm noticing is the difference in time. There is just so much more of it. The days seem longer and I have much more energy to get stuff done and get out and do things. It feels like longer than just a few weeks. It's also really nice to have so much energy now that I'm not battling a hangover a couple of times a week. I'm exercising every day not because I feel like I have to but because I want to.... it feels good.
My mind seems to be coming back to me as well. I'm thinking clearer. The fog is lifting. I'm more engaged with my family. I have always taken good care of my children and been involved but I feel like I'm listening better and having a deeper connection when we interact now that I'm not focused on my addiction. Instead of being distracted by wanting to get home so I could crack open a beer or looking out through the haze of a buzz I'm really present.
I'm sleeping like rock every night and waking up feeling rested and well.
But the best part is the constant obsession isn't plaguing me anymore.... don't get me wrong I still have thoughts but they are easily dismissed. I am not "white knuckling" it or distressed by them. I understand them for what they are..... just the addicted part of my brain doing what it does. I'm not giving anything up.... it doesn't feel punitive. It feels like a release.
I want to express my gratitude to SR and all of you people on here. This place has changed my life! Thank you all!
One of the biggest changes I'm noticing is the difference in time. There is just so much more of it. The days seem longer and I have much more energy to get stuff done and get out and do things. It feels like longer than just a few weeks. It's also really nice to have so much energy now that I'm not battling a hangover a couple of times a week. I'm exercising every day not because I feel like I have to but because I want to.... it feels good.
My mind seems to be coming back to me as well. I'm thinking clearer. The fog is lifting. I'm more engaged with my family. I have always taken good care of my children and been involved but I feel like I'm listening better and having a deeper connection when we interact now that I'm not focused on my addiction. Instead of being distracted by wanting to get home so I could crack open a beer or looking out through the haze of a buzz I'm really present.
I'm sleeping like rock every night and waking up feeling rested and well.
But the best part is the constant obsession isn't plaguing me anymore.... don't get me wrong I still have thoughts but they are easily dismissed. I am not "white knuckling" it or distressed by them. I understand them for what they are..... just the addicted part of my brain doing what it does. I'm not giving anything up.... it doesn't feel punitive. It feels like a release.
I want to express my gratitude to SR and all of you people on here. This place has changed my life! Thank you all!
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hi Zen, congratulations. You sound happy. Its interesting you say that the days seem longer etc....I have the opposite feeling. When drinking the days seem to last FOREVER. When not drinking, it seems like I blink and its 3 in the afternoon. Interesting how we change with or without alcohol.
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Wow Zen congratulations. Its amazing how you can write a couple hundred words describing your situation that I could have written verbatim about myself. If i were in jr high i would think you copied off my paper.
Stay strong and thanks for the encouragement.
Blessings
Stay strong and thanks for the encouragement.
Blessings
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Change changing places
Root yourself to the ground
Capitalize on this good fortune
One word can bring you round
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One road to loneliness
It's always the same
One road to happiness
It's calling your name
Root yourself to the ground
Capitalize on this good fortune
One word can bring you round
Changes
One road to loneliness
It's always the same
One road to happiness
It's calling your name
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Bowie is the first thing that comes to mind with your title.
Good 'un too https://youtu.be/9Cdj_w7eq60 and very apt
Sound's very positive Zen. Great to hear, keep on keeping.
Good 'un too https://youtu.be/9Cdj_w7eq60 and very apt
Sound's very positive Zen. Great to hear, keep on keeping.
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