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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: C.C. Ma.
Posts: 3,697
Hi.
Many times we need to surrender to win. For me I needed to become honest with myself about my drinking and accept the fact I’d never have to feel miserable again if I don’t have that first drink.
This sobriety achievement is no simple thing in the beginning, most of us need to work on it and change our living and thinking processes which requires time and a lot of attention.
People here and at meetings like AA have helped many get and stay sober but they can’t do the work for us.
BE WELL
Many times we need to surrender to win. For me I needed to become honest with myself about my drinking and accept the fact I’d never have to feel miserable again if I don’t have that first drink.
This sobriety achievement is no simple thing in the beginning, most of us need to work on it and change our living and thinking processes which requires time and a lot of attention.
People here and at meetings like AA have helped many get and stay sober but they can’t do the work for us.
BE WELL
Member
Join Date: Nov 2013
Location: SC
Posts: 19
Help is out there in many places. You have access to the means for recovery. Seeking and accepting help can be a scary prospect, but for me it was a life or death situation. Find your plan and stick to it.
Never forget how you feel today. I remember my last drunk very clearly. I remember the misery, sickness, and helplessness. I don't ever want to feel that way again, but I never want to forget how it felt. If I forget, I'm liable to drink again and find myself in worse shape than before.
Never forget how you feel today. I remember my last drunk very clearly. I remember the misery, sickness, and helplessness. I don't ever want to feel that way again, but I never want to forget how it felt. If I forget, I'm liable to drink again and find myself in worse shape than before.
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Join Date: Apr 2015
Location: California
Posts: 1,914
Glad you came back.
It doesn't always stick on the first try, and that's true for most of us. It's important to come back though, at least you're showing yourself you still want it.
What can you change from last time that might help more? Can you add meetings or therapy or something like that?
I don't know about you, but I am willing to do whatever it takes to stay sober, no matter what the cost.
It doesn't always stick on the first try, and that's true for most of us. It's important to come back though, at least you're showing yourself you still want it.
What can you change from last time that might help more? Can you add meetings or therapy or something like that?
I don't know about you, but I am willing to do whatever it takes to stay sober, no matter what the cost.
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: W Washington
Posts: 11,589
Sober, but hung over
here's the good news....if you STAY sober, you will NEVER have another hangover.
but if you keep drinking, you'll never know what life can be like truly sober.
i'm sorry you feel like hell, but glad you are HERE feeling like hell.
here's the good news....if you STAY sober, you will NEVER have another hangover.
but if you keep drinking, you'll never know what life can be like truly sober.
i'm sorry you feel like hell, but glad you are HERE feeling like hell.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,569
So good to see you still trying Lscotty. I remember the misery so well - it's wonderful to be free of it. You can definitely do it - there's nothing in that bottle for us. No fun, excitement, or relief from stress. It only adds to our anxiety.
You can kick it out of your life - we will help. Never give up.
You can kick it out of your life - we will help. Never give up.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: MN
Posts: 8,704
Hi Lscotty, I went back and read your starting threads and there seems to be a bit of a theme or pattern. It sounds as if there may be more going on than just alcohol addiction. The alcohol allows the escape, provides the numbness. I noticed that even in your alcohol free stretches (roughly 2 weeks at a time) you were still battling other issues. Maybe seeking out some assistance to sort it all out would be a good idea. I apologize if you already have done that (I didn't see it if you have). We all know one thing, the booze is not going to solve anything...ever. Never has that I know of. best wishes to you.
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Frederick md
Posts: 101
Thanks guys. I always hear what I need in this place. I do have other issues that lead me back to drinking every time. I found a psychologist and psychiatrist that take my insurance. I have an AA sponsor. Now I just need to move my feet. That's where I get stuck. I put off doing the important stuff and eventually get drunk again.
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Posts: 5,937
Originally Posted by Lscotty1 
Thanks guys. I always hear what I need in this place. I do have other issues that lead me back to drinking every time. I found a psychologist and psychiatrist that take my insurance. I have an AA sponsor. Now I just need to move my feet. That's where I get stuck. I put off doing the important stuff and eventually get drunk again.
It sounds like you're taking the steps you need to succeed. Obviously a relapse isn't what you want but no use crying over spilt milk- the past is the past, you just have to put it behind you and try again.
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: Gulf Coast, USA
Posts: 2,229
One day at a time, Lscotty.
Use as many avenues for support as you can.
Just don't drink today. You know it solves nothing, digs us in a deeper hole of hell, ruins us from the inside out and only succeeds when it has taken everything from us.
Stay strong, you deserve to be sober today!
Use as many avenues for support as you can.
Just don't drink today. You know it solves nothing, digs us in a deeper hole of hell, ruins us from the inside out and only succeeds when it has taken everything from us.
Stay strong, you deserve to be sober today!
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: northern michigan. not the U.P.
Posts: 15,281
Originally Posted by Lscotty1
Thanks guys. I always hear what I need in this place. I do have other issues that lead me back to drinking every time. I found a psychologist and psychiatrist that take my insurance. I have an AA sponsor. Now I just need to move my feet. That's where I get stuck. I put off doing the important stuff and eventually get drunk again.
Into action.
Working with others.
Yup, gotta put in the footwork. But good news on the program of AA-
None of it will hurt ya and none of it is illegal! It will prolly help ya find causes and conditions to the underlying issues a d Solutions for em.
Next time ya want to drink, pick up the phone and call your sponsor or others in recovery. The phone is lighter than a bottle and better solutions that way.
It works if ya work it so work it you're worth it.
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