Been away a while
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Been away a while
And, yes I have been drinking again whilst I have been away. I want to stop for good now and I want to come back here to help me do it Addiction to alcohol is horrible. For people like me, moderation is a myth.
I have been drinking every day now for ten and a half years. Before that, I didn't drink for 14 years. During those 14 years, I didn't feel nauseous and have a headache every day, my legs didn't swell up, I slept better, I had more energy to do things, I had more money, I was thinner, and overall, I was much happier. I need to back there but am struggling to do it on my own.
I have been drinking every day now for ten and a half years. Before that, I didn't drink for 14 years. During those 14 years, I didn't feel nauseous and have a headache every day, my legs didn't swell up, I slept better, I had more energy to do things, I had more money, I was thinner, and overall, I was much happier. I need to back there but am struggling to do it on my own.
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Welcome!!!
How did you wind up back in the dark cycle after 14 years?
What worked back then?
Why did it stop working?
What will you do now - to interrupt the cycle and make a shift?
You can embrace sobriety and be free of the mad, nauseated, swollen, shaking, shameful, anxious, vicious cycle!!! YOU CAN!!!
We are here for you.
How did you wind up back in the dark cycle after 14 years?
What worked back then?
Why did it stop working?
What will you do now - to interrupt the cycle and make a shift?
You can embrace sobriety and be free of the mad, nauseated, swollen, shaking, shameful, anxious, vicious cycle!!! YOU CAN!!!
We are here for you.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: North Yorkshire, England
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Thanks all - means a lot to know I am not alone.
In terms of a plan, I have decided to stop looking for extrinsic solutions - I am in the UK and have seen my GP who has sent me off to an addiction unit for counselling and prescribed medication. I have also tried herbal remedies and private counselling. No one and nothing is going to take this away for me and I now realise that I need to take control myself and stop excepting other people/things to do it for me.
It is good to be back here though.
Much love to you all xxx
In terms of a plan, I have decided to stop looking for extrinsic solutions - I am in the UK and have seen my GP who has sent me off to an addiction unit for counselling and prescribed medication. I have also tried herbal remedies and private counselling. No one and nothing is going to take this away for me and I now realise that I need to take control myself and stop excepting other people/things to do it for me.
It is good to be back here though.
Much love to you all xxx
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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for me, a huge part of taking control was giving up control.
I would not have been where I am today with sobriety if I hadn't included counseling and AA and SR and other people's support in my recovery.
You're absolutely right; nobody's going to take it away FOR you. I'm just saying I'm sure that I would not have been able to do this without the help I got from others. I had to do the work. I had to do the daily decision-making. I had to make the changes. I had to let go of the old patterns. I had to come develop new ways of thinking, new habits, new responses to life.
But the people here, in AA, the words in the Big Book, my work with a therapist, my focus (EVERY DAY) on recovery through the stories and insights and lessons learned of others - that was where I learned what I needed and drew the energy and inspiration to do what I needed to do.
I would not have been where I am today with sobriety if I hadn't included counseling and AA and SR and other people's support in my recovery.
You're absolutely right; nobody's going to take it away FOR you. I'm just saying I'm sure that I would not have been able to do this without the help I got from others. I had to do the work. I had to do the daily decision-making. I had to make the changes. I had to let go of the old patterns. I had to come develop new ways of thinking, new habits, new responses to life.
But the people here, in AA, the words in the Big Book, my work with a therapist, my focus (EVERY DAY) on recovery through the stories and insights and lessons learned of others - that was where I learned what I needed and drew the energy and inspiration to do what I needed to do.
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The last time I was on SR, reading posts on my iPad in bed every evening was extremely helpful. I felt part of a great community and not alone in this. Unfortunately, I stopped visiting SR. Obviously now, part of my plan has to be keeping in touch with the community on SR!
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