Having a very hard day.
Having a very hard day.
Today really sucks!! Ugh. I was supposed to get together with the ex over the weekend on Saturday. He completely blows me off. So I shut off my text notifications after 7pm. Didn't look at them until yesterday. Of course I have 22 B.S. texts from him. The I am sorry, I love you, blah blah. I lost it and went on a texting whirlwind and was just mean and nasty!! He, in return got mean back!! I'm so upset and I'm so sick of crying my eyes out!!! Why can't I just move on. I really wanted to see him Saturday. I got all done up, straightened my hair, dressed super nice... Only to ball my eyes out and have mascara running down my face. I can't take much more of this. Drinking definitely popped into my head for a hot minute last night, but I didn't. Instead I went to sleep. Lord, please give me the strength!! Ugh!!
Glad you made the decision to not take that first drink. Exes are usually exes for a reason. I don't know your situation but maybe you need to write down for yourself all the reasons that relationship didn't work.
Wishing you a better day today. Go treat yourself to something nice after work! Or ice cream. Ice cream is always nice.
Wishing you a better day today. Go treat yourself to something nice after work! Or ice cream. Ice cream is always nice.
Thanks guys! OMG if I would've drank? #1, I probably would've got physically ill and #2, I can only imagine the things I would've said to him. Probably would've ended up getting into my car like a loser.. calling him over and over to say I am coming over to speak to him... having a major disastrous night... only to wake up, realize the night's events and wanting to curl up and crawl into a hole for being a complete and utter jackass!! ...not to mention probably having a hangover the size of Massachusetts!! Yes. No matter what the deal is, things can ALWAYS be worse. A LOT worse! Oh, I'm not a sweets fan, so maybe I'll indulge in a bag of chips!! haha! Salt 'n vins!!! Yum!
Hi,
Very glad to hear you didn't drink last night!
If the relationship is very toxic to you and risks your sobriety, have you considered blocking his number?
You are not Hopeless- you are doing the best you can for yourself by getting sober!!!
Very glad to hear you didn't drink last night!
If the relationship is very toxic to you and risks your sobriety, have you considered blocking his number?
You are not Hopeless- you are doing the best you can for yourself by getting sober!!!
Sorry you had a bad time of it but I'm glad you didn't drink. Maybe don't engage with this guy anymore on any level.
My husband is still drinking and sometimes disappears. I blow up his phone with angry texts which really, are arguments I have by myself because he ignores me. At the time I'm doing it, it temporarily makes me feel better but in the long term I've found out that anger hangovers are almost worse than alcohol hangovers. So often I wanted to drink on top off all that but I haven't.
Take care of yourself. I'm glad you didn't drink. Hang in there.
My husband is still drinking and sometimes disappears. I blow up his phone with angry texts which really, are arguments I have by myself because he ignores me. At the time I'm doing it, it temporarily makes me feel better but in the long term I've found out that anger hangovers are almost worse than alcohol hangovers. So often I wanted to drink on top off all that but I haven't.
Take care of yourself. I'm glad you didn't drink. Hang in there.
Sorry you had a bad time of it but I'm glad you didn't drink. Maybe don't engage with this guy anymore on any level.
My husband is still drinking and sometimes disappears. I blow up his phone with angry texts which really, are arguments I have by myself because he ignores me. At the time I'm doing it, it temporarily makes me feel better but in the long term I've found out that anger hangovers are almost worse than alcohol hangovers. So often I wanted to drink on top off all that but I haven't.
Take care of yourself. I'm glad you didn't drink. Hang in there.
My husband is still drinking and sometimes disappears. I blow up his phone with angry texts which really, are arguments I have by myself because he ignores me. At the time I'm doing it, it temporarily makes me feel better but in the long term I've found out that anger hangovers are almost worse than alcohol hangovers. So often I wanted to drink on top off all that but I haven't.
Take care of yourself. I'm glad you didn't drink. Hang in there.
Hi sweet friend. I'm so so glad you didn't drink. I agree with the others. Time to pull the ripcord and save yourself from the prolonged heartache that will accompany remaining in contact. You deserve better.
I wish you well and well done on not drinking.
I wish you well and well done on not drinking.
Awww!! Thanks Copper! I appreciate the kind words! Throw a very stressful time at work right now with my 2 coworkers who left, well 1 of them has their last day Thursday. The other 1 is gone. So, being stressed out at work just adds more pain to my heart (even though work has nothing to do with my heart). It's just so upsetting. I just wish I could have the love of my life back. If only he knew an EIGHTH of how heavy my heart is, he would probably give a rat's ass!! Double UGH!!
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He sounds like a lame-o. Take yourself on a date this weekend. Do whatever you want, eat whatever you want, treat yourself to something nice. I "dated" myself for quite a while, now I'm much better at saying no and setting boundaries in relationships. It sounds cheesy I know but in the past everything was about my partners and what they wanted , I had to learn what I wanted.
I'm sure you looked fabulous all dressed up too! His loss
I'm sure you looked fabulous all dressed up too! His loss
Awww!! Thanks Copper! I appreciate the kind words! Throw a very stressful time at work right now with my 2 coworkers who left, well 1 of them has their last day Thursday. The other 1 is gone. So, being stressed out at work just adds more pain to my heart (even though work has nothing to do with my heart). It's just so upsetting. I just wish I could have the love of my life back. If only he knew an EIGHTH of how heavy my heart is, he would probably give a rat's ass!! Double UGH!!
Thanks greens, soberwolf and Erikst... It's just easier said than done to forget four years and all of the memories that came with those years. Just having a hard day, that's all, I'll be fine!!
Sorry you are having such a tough time.
On the face of it - it does sound like you would be better off without his negative influence. Perhaps then at least you will be left with some good memories instead of acquiring new bad ones
On the face of it - it does sound like you would be better off without his negative influence. Perhaps then at least you will be left with some good memories instead of acquiring new bad ones
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I'm having a similar problem w a guy who I've been involved w for about the same amount of time as you. I had a therapist......who told me it's unnatural for people to want to suffer.....and I certainly must have wanted to suffer cause I kept going back. There is some great advice here......date yourself.....never thought about it like that ...... I do date myself too.....angry texts.....yep.....I did that .....waste of time. I have no idea how I detached myself but I have......I think being sober for the 51 days before my relapse helped to clear my mind. You have to get away from him or he's going to keep depressing you. Stop contacting him and stop taking his calls. I'm moving to a new town .....for a fresh start......because finally in my heart and mind I know he's toxic. Save yourself.....leave him behind.
I do date myself too.....angry texts.....yep.....I did that .....waste of time. I have no idea how I detached myself but I have......I think being sober for the 51 days before my relapse helped to clear my mind. You have to get away from him or he's going to keep depressing you. Stop contacting him and stop taking his calls. I'm moving to a new town .....for a fresh start......because finally in my heart and mind I know he's toxic. Save yourself.....leave him behind.
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