coming_clean

Haven't done honest self-reflection for some time now.

I'm a very negative person, especially when I'm tired, Working night-shifts aint helping. I only think in limitations, not possibilities. I tend to hide behind argumentation's like:
- (Human) nature is very cruel and our life is ultimately pointless.
- Life made me this way. People have hurt me too much.
- Positive thinking is for daydreaming tree-huggers.
- survival of the fittest, kill or be killed.
- i'm not a pessimist, im a realist

What i'm actually doing is creating a mind-prison that's preventing me to move forward. Trapped in there I still have a link to my addiction-past.

I will start doing writing-excersises in my journal to change negative thinking into positive. Example:

I have to work for the rest my of life for a less-then-mediocre salary doing the same boring stuff every single day

into:

I'm gratefull to be sober and alive, and it's a privilege to have a job were i'm earning enough money to support my familiy and have desent life.

conclusion:

I should be grateful more often and work mindfully on these (dangerous) thought patterns to change them into more positive and
and constructive ones.

SoberLeigh

Great post, coming_clean. I agree; changing our thought-patterns from negative to positive can be life-changing as our thought-patterns permeate almost every aspect of our lives.

Thepatman

I have the same issue sometimes. I forget to count my blessings and dwell on the negative stuff.

mecanix

I tended to the garden of my thoughts , pulled out the weeds , cultivated and encouraged growth , trimmed the bad .

It is ongoing maintenance .

It has made me more in tune with the world around me and better able to make use of those things life throws in my path , take risks and see opportunity i might not have in my drinking days .

m

ClearLight

Thank for this inspiring post!