Alcoholism
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Alcoholism
Alcoholism is stealing my soul, I used to be such a gentle spirit, now I have become a mean drunk. Alcoholism made me show no remorse about the things I was reminded the next day I had said or done. I didn't care what words I said broke who. I had the company of alcohol and that is all that mattered to me.
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Hi mickey, so glad you reached out here. I think you want to quit and that's a good first step. There is a lot of support here and what you are saying can ring true for many here. You are not alone. Is there a place you can go for some help with quitting, I think someone mentioned a young person's meeting on your other thread? You have a lot to process, I think you've had a pretty rough time for awhile now.
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Atlanta
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I went from a semi-cordial drinker to a mean, belligerent drunk.
Used to start fights in bars. Would go to the worst neighborhoods looking for someone to mess with me just so I could kick their ass.
I drank in some, dark dangerous places.
I must have been giving off an odor that said 'don't mess with me', because few did.
Now, almost four and a half years sober I'm a pacifist. Too much so sometimes.
I've learned that some are sicker than others and even sober people can be rude.
I'm now able to take it all in stride and not let anything ruin my day. Even jerks.
Oh, I get the urge to ring someone's neck sometimes. Instead I pray for them.
Sobriety brought me that.
It's one of the many benefits I've found by not drinking.
I wish the same for you.
Used to start fights in bars. Would go to the worst neighborhoods looking for someone to mess with me just so I could kick their ass.
I drank in some, dark dangerous places.
I must have been giving off an odor that said 'don't mess with me', because few did.
Now, almost four and a half years sober I'm a pacifist. Too much so sometimes.
I've learned that some are sicker than others and even sober people can be rude.
I'm now able to take it all in stride and not let anything ruin my day. Even jerks.
Oh, I get the urge to ring someone's neck sometimes. Instead I pray for them.
Sobriety brought me that.
It's one of the many benefits I've found by not drinking.
I wish the same for you.
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: Gulf Coast, USA
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Welcome Mickey, you found a community with a ton of support if you want to get your life back.
I also became a drunk that I never saw coming. I am a laid back, gentle natured person when I'm not drinking. During the later part of my drinking days I was fighting with my wife about nothing, getting on to my kids about nothing, generally living an unhappy life that totally revolved around my drinking schedule 24/7.
That is one of my top reasons for quitting; I never wanted to yell at my kids again just because I was living in a constant state of being drunk. That was my fault, not theirs.
Glad you found us. You can turn this around if you want.
I also became a drunk that I never saw coming. I am a laid back, gentle natured person when I'm not drinking. During the later part of my drinking days I was fighting with my wife about nothing, getting on to my kids about nothing, generally living an unhappy life that totally revolved around my drinking schedule 24/7.
That is one of my top reasons for quitting; I never wanted to yell at my kids again just because I was living in a constant state of being drunk. That was my fault, not theirs.
Glad you found us. You can turn this around if you want.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
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I had the same experience Mickey. Alcohol turned me into someone I didn't even recognize. When I finally stopped, my life was in shambles. I'm glad you are here and wanting a better way of life. We can help. Welcome!
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I'm glad you found us Mickey - welcome 
Alcohol turned me into someone I didn't want to be either...but there is life after putting the bottle down...I'm glad to reconnect with the real me again
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Alcohol turned me into someone I didn't want to be either...but there is life after putting the bottle down...I'm glad to reconnect with the real me again
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Join Date: Jun 2013
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Welcome Mickey!
You'll find a lot of support here.
I also made a slow progression from happy go-lucky drunk, to angry / bitter to complete isolation. I couldn't even remember what I did the next day or in some case's 7 days later.
It slowly consumed me to the point nothing else matter but my next drink,
At the end I didn't recognize myself and couldn't even look myself in the mirror.
It can be hard to see at the start but live gets sooo much better without.
You'll find a lot of support here.
I also made a slow progression from happy go-lucky drunk, to angry / bitter to complete isolation. I couldn't even remember what I did the next day or in some case's 7 days later.
It slowly consumed me to the point nothing else matter but my next drink,
At the end I didn't recognize myself and couldn't even look myself in the mirror.
It can be hard to see at the start but live gets sooo much better without.
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