Relapse
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Relapse
Hi everyone
I gave up drinking 1 February this year but late March I had a glass of wine which became two and spiralled out of control.
19 May was my birthday and a disaster with too much alcohol (it had become an 'every second day' occurrence) so 20 May I stopped drinking.
Yesterday (Thursday, 2 weeks and a day later) I had two bottles of wine.
I am so cross with myself. I was getting my sleep back on track and was starting to 'like' myself! In some ways I wish something 'bad' had happened to teach me a lesson !!
I gave up drinking 1 February this year but late March I had a glass of wine which became two and spiralled out of control.
19 May was my birthday and a disaster with too much alcohol (it had become an 'every second day' occurrence) so 20 May I stopped drinking.
Yesterday (Thursday, 2 weeks and a day later) I had two bottles of wine.
I am so cross with myself. I was getting my sleep back on track and was starting to 'like' myself! In some ways I wish something 'bad' had happened to teach me a lesson !!
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Sometimes the worst thing that can happen is that nothing overtly bad happens, and we continue to drink. 
I hope the awesome support here helps you get sober for good.
Welcome to the family!
I hope the awesome support here helps you get sober for good.
Welcome to the family!
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Gatineau, QC, CA
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Don't beat yourself up. A good idea might be to write down what you think my have started the relapse. Could be a trigger like stress for example. This way you will be able to list actions you can take for the trigger so you don't fall in the trap.
Rooting for you, don't give up ;-)
Rooting for you, don't give up ;-)
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Allentown,pa
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I had a couple false starts as well in the beginning. Honestly forget about it right now starting today get on track and stay there.
Seems impossible in the beginning I know, but it isn't you can do it
Seems impossible in the beginning I know, but it isn't you can do it
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In some ways I wish something 'bad' had happened to teach me a lesson !!
I hope it doesnt come to that this site is full of those kinds of stories and there not all that great.
Just dust yourself off and try again another day.
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: U.S.A.
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Hi Rosie.
I recently relapsed as well. But I have learned through several relapses that beating myself up about it does nothing to help me.
I am currently looking for how to improve myself, get sober, stay sober, and stay sober for good!
I am going to figure that out.
And so will you as long as you keep trying.
I recently relapsed as well. But I have learned through several relapses that beating myself up about it does nothing to help me.
I am currently looking for how to improve myself, get sober, stay sober, and stay sober for good!
I am going to figure that out.
And so will you as long as you keep trying.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
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It's good to meet you Rosie - you're among friends who care.
The same thing happened to me a few times - I guess I just needed further convincing that I can't touch it. Every time I intended to have a few it turned into a disaster. It's so much easier to get free of it. You can do it.
The same thing happened to me a few times - I guess I just needed further convincing that I can't touch it. Every time I intended to have a few it turned into a disaster. It's so much easier to get free of it. You can do it.
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Join Date: Oct 2012
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Those relapses are so sneaky and powerful. The last one I had lasted years and I was a wreck. Welcome to SR. This site brought me back. I hope you find it does the same for you. I lived on my computer for the first four months. Whatever it takes you know. I have been sober since the day I came here back in October of 2012.
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: California
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Welcome Rosie, I am newly back as well, after several episodes of stopping and starting, tomorrow will be 20 days for me, and I am just trying to take it one day at a time.
We can't undo the past, so it isn't worth beating ourselves up over, we need to just keep moving forward.
Looking forward to seeing you on SR.!
We can't undo the past, so it isn't worth beating ourselves up over, we need to just keep moving forward.
Looking forward to seeing you on SR.!
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Originally Posted by escapist 
Those relapses are so sneaky and powerful. The last one I had lasted years and I was a wreck. Welcome to SR. This site brought me back. I hope you find it does the same for you. I lived on my computer for the first four months. Whatever it takes you know. I have been sober since the day I came here back in October of 2012.
Congratulations on 2.5 years!!!!!
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