Newly sober, alone, scared, feeling empty
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Join Date: May 2015
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Newly sober, alone, scared, feeling empty
I'm 25 years old and have a background of drinking that has gone in cycles, and has made me lose everything I have had, or loved... More than once. I just went through it again... And after losing my boyfriend, most friends, and family.. I'm just going through the motions of lie... Empty... I can't sleep because of the grief I feel, nothing feels comfortable, and I am so scared. I guess I just needed to vent, and feel like there is someone to talk to.
Vent all you like. This addiction can really put us in a bad place. It helps to know you're not alone. 
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Welcome to SR!
You are covered 24/7 here. Early sobriety can be hard. With a clear mind past mistakes care come back to the surface and make us feel like dirt.
But, the past is the past. Can't go back. Only forward, onward and upward.
You are covered 24/7 here. Early sobriety can be hard. With a clear mind past mistakes care come back to the surface and make us feel like dirt.
But, the past is the past. Can't go back. Only forward, onward and upward.
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: Lakeside, Ca
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Originally Posted by Jm906839 
I can't sleep because of the grief
and feel like there is someone to talk to.
The good news -- at your young age (if) you stay sober these despairing days of being married to the liquid devil will be far behind you. And I'm sure that you will find much success in life. A sober life filed with family and good moral friends.
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Location: northern michigan. not the U.P.
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Welcome!
The day after my last drunk, having my (by then ex) fiancé tell me some of the things I said and done in a blackout the night before, during a time that I should not have been drinking( I really never hadda time I should have been drinking as I only drank like an alcoholic) , then telling to get my sh*t a d get out, I had never felt lower than I did at that time. Hopeless,helpless, useless,worrthless POS. it was then I was given the gift of desperation and got help through AA .
Through a lot of footwork and action on finding out what makes me tick and changing me, I have not only not drank since, but I have been given a life I never could have dreamed of with the added benefit of nkt feeling like a hopeless,helpless,useless, worthless POS. I actually love myself today.
I'm not knockin ya here as I can understand needing to vent sometimes. But when it came to getting sober, Welp, just venting kept me drunk. I had to put in footwork a d for me that was( a d still is) the program of AA .
PLEASE throw out the arse kikin machine. Yer not a bad woman. Iif ya were ya wouldnt care about how you've effected others.
Yer just sick. But there is a solution and many different forms of solutions.
Getting sober was the scariest thing I ever encountered. Even scarier than fighting cancer.My whole existence revolved around alcohol. It was the solution to every problem in life.
But with courage a d willingness I was able to learn how to live sober.
you can,too!
The day after my last drunk, having my (by then ex) fiancé tell me some of the things I said and done in a blackout the night before, during a time that I should not have been drinking( I really never hadda time I should have been drinking as I only drank like an alcoholic) , then telling to get my sh*t a d get out, I had never felt lower than I did at that time. Hopeless,helpless, useless,worrthless POS. it was then I was given the gift of desperation and got help through AA .
Through a lot of footwork and action on finding out what makes me tick and changing me, I have not only not drank since, but I have been given a life I never could have dreamed of with the added benefit of nkt feeling like a hopeless,helpless,useless, worthless POS. I actually love myself today.
I'm not knockin ya here as I can understand needing to vent sometimes. But when it came to getting sober, Welp, just venting kept me drunk. I had to put in footwork a d for me that was( a d still is) the program of AA .
PLEASE throw out the arse kikin machine. Yer not a bad woman. Iif ya were ya wouldnt care about how you've effected others.
Yer just sick. But there is a solution and many different forms of solutions.
Getting sober was the scariest thing I ever encountered. Even scarier than fighting cancer.My whole existence revolved around alcohol. It was the solution to every problem in life.
But with courage a d willingness I was able to learn how to live sober.
you can,too!
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: UK
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First you never need feel alone, we are open here 24/7.
We have heard everything there is to hear about drinking so there is no reason to feel ashamed or scared.
You are young.
There will be other boyfriends and you can meet new friends.
I'm sure your family will come round.
No-one died.
No-one got really hurt or injured.
I expect 99% of it is can be mended.
Time is a good healer and you can make amends when you are ready,
Drink can make you feel very depressed and down and on edge.
In 24 hours, if you keep sober, you will feel better.
In 48 hours, you will feel different again.
You never have to feel this way again if you don't want to, just don't pick up that first drink.
I wish you the best xx
We have heard everything there is to hear about drinking so there is no reason to feel ashamed or scared.
You are young.
There will be other boyfriends and you can meet new friends.
I'm sure your family will come round.
No-one died.
No-one got really hurt or injured.
I expect 99% of it is can be mended.
Time is a good healer and you can make amends when you are ready,
Drink can make you feel very depressed and down and on edge.
In 24 hours, if you keep sober, you will feel better.
In 48 hours, you will feel different again.
You never have to feel this way again if you don't want to, just don't pick up that first drink.
I wish you the best xx
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Posts: 136
Welcome JM. I came here a couple of days ago in a really dark place. Everyday since the darkness has lessened. My sponsor told me feelings are not facts and they are temporary. We are good people with a bad disease. Wishing you increasing peace and comfort.
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