natenate

After finally getting sober after 7yrs and suffering through detox (w/o meds), I swore I never wanted to experience withdraws again. And that detox would help remind me to stay sober.

After almost 3 months of sobriety, I felt amazing. Everything was going perfect. Beyond perfect. So, I thought, I can have a drink at a special event. Week went by and I thought "see you can just have one". So I had two. Week went by and I thought "see you can control it". Then a dental procedure and no meds so, bought a small bottle to use as a pain-relieving "rinse". It was all downhill and right back to where I left off (and more). Even after a few scary moments and warnings from my family and boss. I went all out while everyone was away. "I'll stop again tomorrow".

That AV tells us we can. We can't! And getting to feel withdraws for a second time, is a reminder of why I said never again. Guess I had to slap myself and think I was better to get the truth. I can't control drinking!

(on day 3 and keeping a better journal this time!)

buk1000

Welcome back nate.

HeartsAfire

So glad you made it back.

Dee74

I'm sorry you had to go through that again natenate but I'm glad you're back

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OnMyWay7

Welcome back and thank you so much for your post. My AV keeps telling me the same although I know I'll be back to where I started or worse.

So thanks and very glad ur back

ScottFromWI

Welcome back Nate. My addiction talked me back into it a few times too. Be strong and reinforce hire plan and this can be your last detox ever.

greens

Sounds like you really used it as a learning experience. Glad you're utilizing your recovery tools