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Here to stay
Hello guys. I have been working hard to quit drinking for a while. I will be honest, I always failed miserably. About a month ago, I was caught cheating (blackout drunk obviously, I would never do that sober) and my long term GF broke up with me. This has been the worst month in my life. However, something good happened in it. I went to my doctor and after a long conversation I was given an antubuse prescription.
I know there is no magic in the pill, but I am fully committed to my sobriety now. I want to get my GF back because I love her, and I want to remain being a person I can be proud of. As of today, I am 30 days sober and amidst the pain, I can finally say: I am here to stay.
I know there is no magic in the pill, but I am fully committed to my sobriety now. I want to get my GF back because I love her, and I want to remain being a person I can be proud of. As of today, I am 30 days sober and amidst the pain, I can finally say: I am here to stay.
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Welcome Riig - we're so glad to meet you.
Drinking turned me into a completely different person. I tried so hard to control it so I could just relax and have fun - but that never happened. Each time it was in my system I was in danger of saying or doing something shameful and stupid. It was a relief to finally admit I couldn't touch it. It's great to be free. You can do it!
Drinking turned me into a completely different person. I tried so hard to control it so I could just relax and have fun - but that never happened. Each time it was in my system I was in danger of saying or doing something shameful and stupid. It was a relief to finally admit I couldn't touch it. It's great to be free. You can do it!
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Well, she says she was afraid that every time I was drunk I wanted to be without her and or was just mean with her. She further said that IF drunk people always tell the truth, maybe I don't love her.
She is right to be super angry. After giving me many chances, maybe this was too much. However, I am going crazy trying to explain to her that the common belief that drunk people always tell the truth is nonsense. Drinking made me someone I hate. It brought out of me a person that is SO far from the person I really want to be. I cannot accept that the person I became while drunk is the truthful me.
Considering so proud I am of my last 30 days, I think I'm right this time.
She is right to be super angry. After giving me many chances, maybe this was too much. However, I am going crazy trying to explain to her that the common belief that drunk people always tell the truth is nonsense. Drinking made me someone I hate. It brought out of me a person that is SO far from the person I really want to be. I cannot accept that the person I became while drunk is the truthful me.
Considering so proud I am of my last 30 days, I think I'm right this time.
I'm glad you joined us. Congrats on the first of many sober months. 
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Great job on 30 days!!! Try not to focus so much on convincing her of the past drunk conversations, behavior. Stay in the sober moment and continue moving forward. In time she will see the person you truly are- sober. Time heals most things. You can't move backwards, just forward. One day at a time.
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