151 days and i'm having trouble today.
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151 days and i'm having trouble today.
I'm not sure why I feel this way, but I really want to drink. It's been about five months since my last drink and as of the last few months I've been fine with no desire to drink. Today I want it, bad. I have my coat on ready to leave to go get it. I keep mulling it over in my mind, trying to think of all the reasons why I shouldn't/can't but it's not helping. I want it and I feel depressed because I want it, which makes me want it even more. I need help.
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Hey, Jayman, great job on 151 days.
Take that coat off; sit down and start writing a list of the reasons why you quit drinking. Maybe go back and read your past SR posts.
Play the tape forward of how drinking today will go - the short-lived 'reprieve', the horrific, lingering hangover, the regret and the disappointment, and potentially the full-blown relapse.
You can get through this, jayman. We are here for you.
Take that coat off; sit down and start writing a list of the reasons why you quit drinking. Maybe go back and read your past SR posts.
Play the tape forward of how drinking today will go - the short-lived 'reprieve', the horrific, lingering hangover, the regret and the disappointment, and potentially the full-blown relapse.
You can get through this, jayman. We are here for you.
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Jayman - Good for you to post BEFORE drinking! That's a huge step - tells me you really don't want to drink, just need to get through this feeling.
I committed last June 9th not to drink that day. Not forever, just that day - good feeling or bad, craving or not I would not drink June 9th.
My days have added up - still have not had a drink. My head is clearing, I am becoming a productive member of my family again and can shave while looking in the mirror. I can only do this one day at a time, forever doesn't ever enter my thoughts.
This too shall pass - those are words I use when I feel a craving. I remember that last time I drank and crap I caused for myself and those I love. I hated that way that felt and don't want to feel it again. So, I remember it>
Most of us did not get to SR on a winning streak! We did not google things like - I am a frigging drunk and need to quit because my life has turned to total **** and everything I touch sucks~
Maybe your search parameters where different
What brought you here, day one???
Ride it out, call a friend - keep posting. Maybe stick your head in an ** meeting if you will.......do whatever it takes. Tomorrow you'll be so glad you did!!
Stick with us!!!!
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I committed last June 9th not to drink that day. Not forever, just that day - good feeling or bad, craving or not I would not drink June 9th.
My days have added up - still have not had a drink. My head is clearing, I am becoming a productive member of my family again and can shave while looking in the mirror. I can only do this one day at a time, forever doesn't ever enter my thoughts.
This too shall pass - those are words I use when I feel a craving. I remember that last time I drank and crap I caused for myself and those I love. I hated that way that felt and don't want to feel it again. So, I remember it>
Most of us did not get to SR on a winning streak! We did not google things like - I am a frigging drunk and need to quit because my life has turned to total **** and everything I touch sucks~
Maybe your search parameters where different
What brought you here, day one???
Ride it out, call a friend - keep posting. Maybe stick your head in an ** meeting if you will.......do whatever it takes. Tomorrow you'll be so glad you did!!
Stick with us!!!!
Cubs Fan????
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I rode it out, i'm feeling better after having a big meal while reading through my prior posts and thinking about the consequences if I drink. I'm glad I posted, your comments really helped. It's a scary thing how it just came out of no where. Thank you all for the support.
Not a cubs fan btw, ever since they folded and gave up in 2008.
Not a cubs fan btw, ever since they folded and gave up in 2008.
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Originally Posted by jayman 
I rode it out, i'm feeling better after having a big meal while reading through my prior posts and thinking about the consequences if I drink. I'm glad I posted, your comments really helped. It's a scary thing how it just came out of no where. Thank you all for the support.
Not a cubs fan btw, ever since they folded and gave up in 2008.
Not a cubs fan btw, ever since they folded and gave up in 2008.
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Originally Posted by Fly N Buy
Most of us did not get to SR on a winning streak! We did not google things like - I am a frigging drunk and need to quit because my life has turned to total **** and everything I touch sucks~
Maybe your search parameters where different
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Originally Posted by jayman
I'm not sure why I feel this way, but I really want to drink. It's been about five months since my last drink and as of the last few months I've been fine with no desire to drink. Today I want it, bad. I have my coat on ready to leave to go get it. I keep mulling it over in my mind, trying to think of all the reasons why I shouldn't/can't but it's not helping. I want it and I feel depressed because I want it, which makes me want it even more. I need help.
I had a period of almost two years sober before I relapsed...which of course I regret. At 5 months I had the same thing happen to me. It was triggered by anger for sure...I literally was driving to the liquor store. But somehow, something came over me....sort of a wave of calm and I just drove past it. Thank Goodness. Try to do something other than drink until the craving passes. Eat. Don't attach to the urge. Hang in there.
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I know how you feel!! I'm at 100 days and all weekend all I could think about was that!! I think my trigger is stress- I used to moderate stress with wine. Same stress still there and now I have to learn different coping skills. Glad you posted. So not worth it.
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