It seems hard to get back here
It seems hard to get back here
Just before I went to a 10 day meditation retreat last month, I drank again. Not a lot, but enough. I think I was scared. Then, the retreat. No intoxicants of any kind, no killing, no talking (which makes "no lying" pretty easy), no meat, no reading, no writing. I came back to my world different. Felt weird, almost too "good". In fact, it was awesome. So, I drank. WHO DOES THAT FOR PETES SAKE?? Who doesn't drink and gets their life together for over 200 days, attends a life changing silent meditation retreat and then caves to a stupid bunch of fermented grapes?????
I guess I do. I'm back to SR and no alcohol. But, I've been reading and feeling like I've flunked out and have nothing to offer. Tonight, I realized I need to claim my rightful place and start posting again. Hello, fine friends.
I guess I do. I'm back to SR and no alcohol. But, I've been reading and feeling like I've flunked out and have nothing to offer. Tonight, I realized I need to claim my rightful place and start posting again. Hello, fine friends.
Hi Inchworm
I always said I could get sober in a cabin in the woods like Kerouac in Dharma Bums...but then I'd have to live forever in a cabin in the woods...
Returning to real life always tripped Kerouac up too...and me, so you're in good company .
we need a plan to deal with our day to day lives
No point in beating your self up..every day is a new start
you just need to start working on that normal life day to day plan.
There are a lot of good ideas here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
I always said I could get sober in a cabin in the woods like Kerouac in Dharma Bums...but then I'd have to live forever in a cabin in the woods...
Returning to real life always tripped Kerouac up too...and me, so you're in good company .
we need a plan to deal with our day to day lives
No point in beating your self up..every day is a new start
you just need to start working on that normal life day to day plan.
There are a lot of good ideas here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
I know what i learned can be used in the best possible way, Scott. I'm working on my action plan and will definitely include daily sitting.
Just before I went to a 10 day meditation retreat last month, I drank again. Not a lot, but enough. I think I was scared. Then, the retreat. No intoxicants of any kind, no killing, no talking (which makes "no lying" pretty easy), no meat, no reading, no writing. I came back to my world different. Felt weird, almost too "good". In fact, it was awesome. So, I drank. WHO DOES THAT FOR PETES SAKE?? Who doesn't drink and gets their life together for over 200 days, attends a life changing silent meditation retreat and then caves to a stupid bunch of fermented grapes?????
I guess I do. I'm back to SR and no alcohol. But, I've been reading and feeling like I've flunked out and have nothing to offer. Tonight, I realized I need to claim my rightful place and start posting again. Hello, fine friends.
I guess I do. I'm back to SR and no alcohol. But, I've been reading and feeling like I've flunked out and have nothing to offer. Tonight, I realized I need to claim my rightful place and start posting again. Hello, fine friends.
How are you doing now? As you have said before We HAVE to stick at it !!!
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