MJane91

Hey guys i now no i cant just have one drink because it doesn't stop there.
im so adamant that i never want to drink again and in want to live a life of sobriety, but why is there a little part of me that is finding it hard to let go, im so much happier and healthier when i dont drink so what makes me do it confused angry and upset!

Dee74

That's what addiction is tho Mjane- it's illogical and absurd - yet it will convince you it's the most reasonable decision in the world to drink.

You're not alone with this - we all have lived through it, or are going through it now.

D

LBrain

aces and eights always beats kings and queens
and
addiction beats logic almost every time
but
eventually logic wins
DON'T GIVE UP

Soberwolf

(((((Mjane))))) What D said

IOAA2

Hi.
The reaction your having is obviously irrational and is part of what alcoholism is.

I need to remind myself because of it that alcohol is powerful, baffling, cunning and insidious. Combined with alcoholism it will pounce on us in a heartbeat as is so often seen on these forums.

One of my favorites is that if I don’t pick up that first drink one day at a time in a row I won’t have to try to get sober AGAIN.

BE WELL

aasharon90

I too like so many tried too many times
vowing to never drink again. Enough
is enough. Im done. I can't do this anymore.
Swearing up and down to NEVER EVER
drink again.

To only lose one more millionth time.
Why am I such a failure as a wife, mother,
in life id ask myself.

24 yrs ago family intervened on me
placing me into the hands of those
who could teach me about my addiction
feeding me some valueable information
and giving me a program of recovery
to incorporate in my everyday life in
all my affairs.

Learning about addiction and its
affects on me and others around me
was and still is extremely important.
If I hadn't learned, listened, absorbed
this vital information then I wouldn't
have known how to apply it to my life.

I learned in rehab that I needed a program
of recovery as a guideline in helping me
remain sober one day at a time. That as
much as I tried to remain sober on my own,
that it never worked. So I became accepting
of this recovery program and today am
extremely grateful for it.

Never will I ever take my addiction
for granted because ive heard too
many die from it. I too could have
been one of those statistics 24 yrs
ago, however, I chose to live with
a program of recovery and Faith
to guide me all along the way to
get me where I am today.

Healthy Happy Honest

I, like so many in recovery are here
to give you HOPE that YES there is
a rewarding life beyond addiction.

NikTes

Hi MJane, I'm glad you posted. I've felt this way too and still do sometimes. If you can find and understand the reason(s) why you want to pick up that first drink, you can also find other tools and strategies to replace the booze. Why is the booze hard to let go for you? Keep working at this, and you can do it! The first drink is the easiest one to say no to.

PurpleKnight

Any change is always going to take time to get comfortable, the other thing is alcohol is addictive and your mind/body doesn't want you to let go.

Don't beat yourself up, focus on Sobriety, build up a few Sober muscles and alcohol will slowly be kicked to the kerb!!

Hang in there!!