What i love about you guys
What i love about you guys
So i fell back to the standard crap. Made 24 hrs then fell into the 'well whats one drink' and 'im not gonna stop drinking all together cause everyone i know drinks' etc, etc. Then the worst happened. My best friend just passed away last Sunday in a sudden accident. I havent gone over the deep end but the alcohol is still my go to and it is way too much - so maybe it is over the deep end. Its the standard 3 super stiff rum and cokes every night as it has been for over 10 years. I know it is affecting me physically but now i am using this loss as another excuse to drink.
Back to why i love you guys. I get tentative to come back and admit my repeated failures but i never feel judged. Only encouraged to get back on my feet and try again. For that i am thankful. This is gonna be a tough couple more days. The funeral is on saturday and i am a pall bearer and am playing guitar with a couple other friends at the service. Dont give up on me guys. This bottle is pissing me off more and more and i feel so weak that i couldnt get past 24 hrs this last time. Hugs and fist bumps to you all!
Back to why i love you guys. I get tentative to come back and admit my repeated failures but i never feel judged. Only encouraged to get back on my feet and try again. For that i am thankful. This is gonna be a tough couple more days. The funeral is on saturday and i am a pall bearer and am playing guitar with a couple other friends at the service. Dont give up on me guys. This bottle is pissing me off more and more and i feel so weak that i couldnt get past 24 hrs this last time. Hugs and fist bumps to you all!
What an inspiring post. So sorry to hear about your friend. I imagine you are trying to make sense of the whole thing at the moment. It sounds like you have a pretty good perspective on your problem and I hope you will be back more frequently to fight the good fight along with all of us.
Best wishes on Saturday. We will be with you in spirit.
Best wishes on Saturday. We will be with you in spirit.
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