Day 42
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Day 42
If someone had told me the physical withdrawal was the easy part I never would have believed them. This constant inner voice screaming at me, making excuses, seemingly valid points, amplifying all of the negative interaction I have with people to the point a simple sideways glance has me feeling like I am worthless and should just walk out on my job because I'm in over my head anyway. I know it doesn't help I just started a new job while quitting but I can't change that. I have to provide. This emotional pain is literally worse than anything I have ever felt. It is as if napalm is being poured directly only on my soul and the only thing that can stop the burning is alcohol.
Day 42. Almost halfway done. 5 hours left of work.
Day 42. Almost halfway done. 5 hours left of work.
If someone had told me the physical withdrawal was the easy part I never would have believed them. This constant inner voice screaming at me, making excuses, seemingly valid points, amplifying all of the negative interaction I have with people to the point a simple sideways glance has me feeling like I am worthless and should just walk out on my job because I'm in over my head anyway. I know it doesn't help I just started a new job while quitting but I can't change that. I have to provide. This emotional pain is literally worse than anything I have ever felt. It is as if napalm is being poured directly only on my soul and the only thing that can stop the burning is alcohol. Day 42. Almost halfway done. 5 hours left of work.
You will feel worse I reckon if you throw your 42 days away. Post regularly as you get the urge. There are some good people out there that will give you better advice than I ever can.
Sobriety is a simple endeavor. However, it is not an easy one. For most of us, our sobriety is forged by fire. It is making through the difficult days that create deeper levels of strength and hope.
When, and I emphasize WHEN you get through this, the next time you find yourself in a similar state of mind, you can look back and say, "Yeah, I recognize this feeling. I kicked it's a$$ last time and made it through"
When, and I emphasize WHEN you get through this, the next time you find yourself in a similar state of mind, you can look back and say, "Yeah, I recognize this feeling. I kicked it's a$$ last time and made it through"
Feeling pain, and other emotions, is a challenge when you've numbed then out for so long - but we do get better Pipedeam I promise.
We can find other ways to deal with the things that pain us.
there's some good reading here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-recovery.html
We can find other ways to deal with the things that pain us.
there's some good reading here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-recovery.html
Last edited by Dee74; 04-11-2015 at 04:30 PM.
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Damn 42 days Is crazy good. Be proud of that man. That really scares me you still feel like that. I only got eight days and that's been hard. I hope it still isn't that hard that far down the road. Keep looking forward and stay strong
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So, day 43, the AV is quiet today but work has kept me quite busy.
I feel great, much better than yesterday. I can't wait for the day that this energy and positive attitude is the norm not the exception. I hope this day continues in this fashion!
I feel great, much better than yesterday. I can't wait for the day that this energy and positive attitude is the norm not the exception. I hope this day continues in this fashion!
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