Serper2014

Then only because of that's what you're supposed to do at frat parties
Then only because I could do it legally
Then only because I was going through a tough breakup
Then only because it gave me confidence to socialize
Then only because I was on vacation
Then only because it was my last summer before med school
Then only because my significant other did it
Then only because I was going through a breakup again
Then only because If I tried to stop I would shake
Then only because I was tapering
Then only because I couldn't get out of bed
Then only because I needed to avoid going to the ER
Then only because I completed detox successfully
Then only because I could find people that didn't know I had a problem
Then only because I'm not ready for sobriety



This is chronological, please brain, do not let this list triple. Please. Please. I'm on Day 3 and starting to pink cloud.... writing this list brought me back to reality.

Mikie9

NOW serper. Now, not then.

I found the Pink Cloud is real, but feeling good from not drinking is good too, just let it play out.

Serper2014

Yes NOW. Thanks for that.

MIRecovery

There are tons of reasons to drink. Just not any good ones. I have never seen a problem alcohol won't make worse

Mountainmanbob

Then only because I deceived myself yet again.

Keep an eye on the one in the mirror.

Mountainman

ScottFromWI

Congrats on day 3. While its important to learn from your past, dwellling on it can be counterproductive. Why not make a list of all the positives you will gain by staying sober too?

alphaomega

I hear you Serper. I'm in Vegas at the present, and for just a split second, I thought, well gosh, I AM in Vegas. Like my alcoholism can take a vacation ?

No. Just no no no.

Serper2014

Vegas and Amsterdam are two places on this planet I've blacklisted. (I've been to amsterdam, but not vegas. I feel if I go there I wouldn't come back alive. I really mean that too...

Buggirl

Congrats on day 3! You can do this! It has to be you doing it for you though!

ZaBoozer

Hang in there Serper, I am on day four. If it helps, think - I will not have a drink this hour. Bargain with yourself to get through. Any trick you can use to fool your mind helps. Once your mind is clear, you can begin to heal.