Day 1 - the aftermath of yesterday's blackout
Day 1 - the aftermath of yesterday's blackout
Day 1 of recovery for me. I'm scared. Not so much of not drinking. I don't want to drink. Alcohol has ruined my life. Just scared of the aftermath of my blackout yesterday. I'm embarrassed and ashamed. My family is disgusted by me. Just reaching out for support.
I hope things get better.
I hope things get better.
Para, welcome. True, you can't change the past. But you can make it never happen again. Drink lots of water, take care of yourself today.
The ohmygosh I don't want to drink phase will pass, so now is a good time to make a plan. There is a lot of good info on the forums here about recovery methods. Probably the most expedient thing to do is find an aa meeting in your area.
You never have to feel like this again.
The ohmygosh I don't want to drink phase will pass, so now is a good time to make a plan. There is a lot of good info on the forums here about recovery methods. Probably the most expedient thing to do is find an aa meeting in your area.
You never have to feel like this again.
Glad to hear it scared you because blackouts didn't scare me for years. In fact, I didn't acknowledge they were happening and that took me down a very dark road.
The best advice I received early on was: do anything you have to to go to bed sober tonight. Just keep that in mind.
The best advice I received early on was: do anything you have to to go to bed sober tonight. Just keep that in mind.
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Day 1 of recovery for me. I'm scared. Not so much of not drinking. I don't want to drink. Alcohol has ruined my life. Just scared of the aftermath of my blackout yesterday. I'm embarrassed and ashamed. My family is disgusted by me. Just reaching out for support.
I hope things get better.
I hope things get better.
Humbling myself and going back to AA will save me. But I must do the work, that is where i've failed so many times. I have a lot of work to do. This time I will do different!
What I needed was some suggestions..a plan...someone to tell me what to do...I like what you said (quoted below)..and that's going to be my plan:
"Then the work starts with lots of meetings, getting AND USING a sponsor, stop isolating, getting active at meetingS, make the changes we need to stay in recovery and just don’t drink even if you’re A$$ falls off."
I hope ya don't procrastinate or make excuses to not go to meetings.
The programs been a godsend for me.
I hear you para. We must reach deep and take something positive out of this. After all we are in the same boat. I'm scared also. Look at it this way, last nights drunk got us back here. We are so fortunate to be able to come back. Some don't make it. You, everyone here and I did. Now lets do something with it...Peace
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I journaled every single moment and detail of the pain, embarrassment, shame, anxiety, depression, consequences etc. from my last drunk. When I think of drinking, I read it. After I read it, I don't want to drink anymore. Maybe give it a try. We alcoholic a DO have really good "forgetters".
Day 1. So far so good! I have not had a drink. And nor have I wanted to. I spent most of it with family and it was my nephew's 9th birthday.
I also lost my only set of car keys yesterday in my drunken stupor too. Can't find them anywhere and the restaurant can't find them. So I had to also get my car towed home and pay to make another set of keys. Active addiction is becoming too costly for me. A $10 Mickey cost me a few hundred dollars. But I will not complain. Losing my car keys was a blessing in disguise. I might have drove.
My mom said she would drive me to a meeting tonight!
I also lost my only set of car keys yesterday in my drunken stupor too. Can't find them anywhere and the restaurant can't find them. So I had to also get my car towed home and pay to make another set of keys. Active addiction is becoming too costly for me. A $10 Mickey cost me a few hundred dollars. But I will not complain. Losing my car keys was a blessing in disguise. I might have drove.
My mom said she would drive me to a meeting tonight!
Day 1. So far so good! I have not had a drink. And nor have I wanted to. I spent most of it with family and it was my nephew's 9th birthday.
I also lost my only set of car keys yesterday in my drunken stupor too. Can't find them anywhere and the restaurant can't find them. So I had to also get my car towed home and pay to make another set of keys. Active addiction is becoming too costly for me. A $10 Mickey cost me a few hundred dollars. But I will not complain. Losing my car keys was a blessing in disguise. I might have drove.
My mom said she would drive me to a meeting tonight!
I also lost my only set of car keys yesterday in my drunken stupor too. Can't find them anywhere and the restaurant can't find them. So I had to also get my car towed home and pay to make another set of keys. Active addiction is becoming too costly for me. A $10 Mickey cost me a few hundred dollars. But I will not complain. Losing my car keys was a blessing in disguise. I might have drove.
My mom said she would drive me to a meeting tonight!
Good job on day one , para. We've all been there para. Stick with us here and you can do this. You never have to have another embarrassing blackout again! You can move forward and be proud of yourself. Trust us....it is possible.
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