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I drank.
I drank an average of half of a fifth of vodka 4-6 days a week for most of my adult life. I spent the last five days having withdrawals and on an emotional roller coaster trying to be sober. I was feeling good on day five and so excited to succeed at a sober weekend. I need to be sober. I wrote a post just a few days ago crying about how bad withdrawals were and that I wouldn't/couldn't turn back -and I did. I drank, darn it!
So I'm wiping the tears and starting my new day one, but I'm more afraid. I have a very challenging week coming up. If i can't even make it through a normal weekend, how will I make it through my tempting weekend next week? I have to do this, I want to.
I drank an average of half of a fifth of vodka 4-6 days a week for most of my adult life. I spent the last five days having withdrawals and on an emotional roller coaster trying to be sober. I was feeling good on day five and so excited to succeed at a sober weekend. I need to be sober. I wrote a post just a few days ago crying about how bad withdrawals were and that I wouldn't/couldn't turn back -and I did. I drank, darn it!
So I'm wiping the tears and starting my new day one, but I'm more afraid. I have a very challenging week coming up. If i can't even make it through a normal weekend, how will I make it through my tempting weekend next week? I have to do this, I want to.
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Hope it works out well!
We should almost start a small Skype group, or something. Just a small group, keep in touch with each other daily, keep each other updated, chastise (err... I mean support) each other when we fall, etc. Might help, no?
We should almost start a small Skype group, or something. Just a small group, keep in touch with each other daily, keep each other updated, chastise (err... I mean support) each other when we fall, etc. Might help, no?
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Originally Posted by SoberLeigh 
Are you still drinking, Komplex?
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Staying sober is a skill like any other Komplex - we learn it, we build up a support base, we make changes in our lives to support our decision for change, and things get easier.
Think about what more you can do for your recovery.
Not staying sober this weekend is not necessarily a determinant of your attempts in the future - unless you change nothing...so make some changes
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Think about what more you can do for your recovery.
Not staying sober this weekend is not necessarily a determinant of your attempts in the future - unless you change nothing...so make some changes
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Originally Posted by TroyW
Hope it works out well!
We should almost start a small Skype group, or something. Just a small group, keep in touch with each other daily, keep each other updated, chastise (err... I mean support) each other when we fall, etc. Might help, no?
We should almost start a small Skype group, or something. Just a small group, keep in touch with each other daily, keep each other updated, chastise (err... I mean support) each other when we fall, etc. Might help, no?
How are you doing Troy? Feel free to message me anytime - we have got to get a hold of ourselves!
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Originally Posted by Komplex
No - I'm home. I met up with my daughters friend and her parents. I didn't even think about alcohol, but bam I ordered a drink before I knew what hit me. I had four- four too many.
Sobriety has so much goodness to offer; you are going to love it.
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Originally Posted by TroyW
Hope it works out well!
We should almost start a small Skype group, or something. Just a small group, keep in touch with each other daily, keep each other updated, chastise (err... I mean support) each other when we fall, etc. Might help, no?
We should almost start a small Skype group, or something. Just a small group, keep in touch with each other daily, keep each other updated, chastise (err... I mean support) each other when we fall, etc. Might help, no?
March 2015 is here
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-3-a-8.html
Check it out Troy
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I know we can't debate recovery methods here, so please correct me if I'm out of line. I'm a closet drunk - literally I usually drink out of my closet �� I'm looked up some AA meetings last week and also some addiction counselors. I'm terrified of admitting the facts to my family and friends, and I'm more terrified of walking into a meeting I'm not sure I'm welcome at. That's why I thought a counselor might be a good idea, but I haven't called. I'm scared- scared to drink, scared to recover, scared to ask for help.
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Originally Posted by Komplex
I know we can't debate recovery methods here, so please correct me if I'm out of line. I'm a closet drunk - literally I usually drink out of my closet �� I'm looked up some AA meetings last week and also some addiction counselors. I'm terrified of admitting the facts to my family and friends, and I'm more terrified of walking into a meeting I'm not sure I'm welcome at. That's why I thought a counselor might be a good idea, but I haven't called. I'm scared- scared to drink, scared to recover, scared to ask for help.
why do you think you might not be welcome at AA?
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Originally Posted by FreeOwl
I hope you'll let AA have a chance.... It is a fantastic tool in your sobriety arsenal.
Sounds to me like you need some support in your life to get over the hump.
Sounds to me like you need some support in your life to get over the hump.
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Originally Posted by Komplex
Thank you. Can I ask? With AA, can I just look up a meeting and show up? Should I call the number listed online first? I agree the more support the better for me, right now.
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"I'm more terrified of walking into a meeting I'm not sure I'm welcome at."
The primary purpose of AA is to stop drinking AND help another alcoholic to achieve sobriety.
That’s the bedrock of AA. It’s a place where people understand us and have outstretched hands of welcome.
We may not like all we hear but staying around may change our minds, it did mine and my life certainly improved.
BE WELL
The primary purpose of AA is to stop drinking AND help another alcoholic to achieve sobriety.
That’s the bedrock of AA. It’s a place where people understand us and have outstretched hands of welcome.
We may not like all we hear but staying around may change our minds, it did mine and my life certainly improved.
BE WELL
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Komplex,
Almost Everyone that walks into their first meeting is scared. No reason to be. They've all been there. Just walk in, say hello, sit down and listen. It's not so hard. Good Luck! If you feel like sharing, Do. If not, listen. How hard is that?
I actually crave my meetings now. Try a few out for fit. They're all a bit different.
Almost Everyone that walks into their first meeting is scared. No reason to be. They've all been there. Just walk in, say hello, sit down and listen. It's not so hard. Good Luck! If you feel like sharing, Do. If not, listen. How hard is that?
I actually crave my meetings now. Try a few out for fit. They're all a bit different.
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