Sober Realization
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Sober Realization
Hi all, I'm at day 11 and in some ways I've been thinking that my second week has been more difficult for me than the first. During the first week it seems like the excitement and pride I felt for finally being sober again kept my spirits up and I felt really great. During the second week it's almost as though that initial "novelty" of being sober has worn off a bit, and I'm left dealing with thoughts like "okay, I'm sober now, is this really how you're going to be spending the rest of your life?" ... "oh crap, I can't drink anymore?"
However, I think one of the most difficult things for me in this second week of sobriety, and it took me a few days to come to this realization, but I came to realize that alcohol has allowed me to not have to deal with things I didn't want to deal with. I could just push things off and forget about issues I didn't want to bother with. Well, obviously that's not a healthy way to live, and it's gotten me in trouble and kept me stuck in certain situations. Now, however, I don't have alcohol to assist me in ignoring thoughts/feelings/and issues, and I find myself struggling with how else to deal with those things. It's resulted in sleepless nights, needless anxiety, and questioning my sobriety.
I think the answer is rather obvious, I need to learn to deal with these things like any other functioning adult needs to. It's just that I need to catch up from behind and in some cases relearn how to deal with responsibilities and issues I need to face. It's just one more struggle I find myself facing in this journey, thought I'd share my feelings.
Thanks for all the encouragement I've received from everyone on this site so far. It's been very helpful.
However, I think one of the most difficult things for me in this second week of sobriety, and it took me a few days to come to this realization, but I came to realize that alcohol has allowed me to not have to deal with things I didn't want to deal with. I could just push things off and forget about issues I didn't want to bother with. Well, obviously that's not a healthy way to live, and it's gotten me in trouble and kept me stuck in certain situations. Now, however, I don't have alcohol to assist me in ignoring thoughts/feelings/and issues, and I find myself struggling with how else to deal with those things. It's resulted in sleepless nights, needless anxiety, and questioning my sobriety.
I think the answer is rather obvious, I need to learn to deal with these things like any other functioning adult needs to. It's just that I need to catch up from behind and in some cases relearn how to deal with responsibilities and issues I need to face. It's just one more struggle I find myself facing in this journey, thought I'd share my feelings.
Thanks for all the encouragement I've received from everyone on this site so far. It's been very helpful.
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Similar here. Once the Alcohol was removed, I had to face a huge maintain of proverbial crap. Finances, health, broken relationships.
I'm still digging my way out. It will take me around 2 years. I take it one scoop at a time.
I'm still digging my way out. It will take me around 2 years. I take it one scoop at a time.
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