livingnow

Yes. I really did. after 85 days sober.
I bought a six and drank it.
THAT WAS THE BEST way (as it turns out) to seal the deal on lifelong sobriety for me.
WHY?
Because a few beers in I felt like, THIS is what Im "missing"?
This is all you got Alcohol??
I thought and felt - "I cant wait to sober up- I no longer LIKE this feeling.
Its no longer who I am !!!
So...I "romanced" the buzz, obtained it ....Turns out (for me) The AV will have little if any power after remembering Sat night.
And can say NOW Im perfectly convinced I will never drink again.
For me- I learn best like this at times.
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Im no longer concerned with "days sober" - dont care
I KNOW I will never drink again- so to me its ok now
Im free.

chordcowboy

Hi livingnow


so valuable to hear this from someone else. The last several times I have drunk it has been so disappointing - but I forget so quickly!!!
Thanks for sharing - from someone who is in the early days of sobriety and needs this kind of help. I like your positive attitude and renewed certainty.
best to you

CC

Hevyn

Living, I felt that way my last time out too. I'd had 3 yrs. sober & have no idea why I decided to ruin my progress. In my case it was the last time I drank. I have 7+ yrs. now. I hope it works out for you - sometimes we need further proof that we are done with it. You're right, there's nothing in it for us - just misery and disappointment.

SoberLeigh

Hang on to that newfound freedom and run with it, livingnow, into your forever-sober future.

ScottFromWI

Glad you are back and also back on track. It is a great reminder to us all s well, thank you for your honesty and sharing the story.

PurpleKnight

Great to hear you're back to Sobriety!!

JT0626

fly free!!!!!

doggonecarl

I'm always concerned when I read that someone has gone back out, especially of late, where people have posted, with just as much assurance as you, that it was a "one time deal," only to be sucked back into the drinking whirlpool.

You came to the realization a "few" beers in, but drank the entire six? That's how alcohol works. Insidiously.

I hope your epiphany carries you through to lifelong sobriety, because the risks of returning to drinking are just too great.

Soberwolf

Glad your bk Livingnow

Dee74

I'm glad your back too livignnow

I'm not beating you up - I'm really not - but I'm worried that on this occasion you didn't post here beforehand?

D

Buggirl

Great you are back! I too had to go through it to get where I am today!

livingnow

Oh I know your not...I know you well enough.
I was gonna do it regardless of posting or anyone heres "dont do it" etc.
That said- This is the "after post "and I REALLY have something Ive never had before. The Mind set that drinking is behind me now. Its such a waste!