dog69

Ok, goin a few months no drinking. This is the first time since that my wifes gone for the wknd. Actually she's gone most of the day thru the week so I could always sneak one in if I wanted but I haven't wanted to. So now it's saturday, beautiful weather, I could really tie one on if I wanted to as she isn't here.

Unfort. a really good friend and x drinking buddy of mine lives right down the road. That sux and i'm sure I don't need to tell you why. He actually understands and doesn't bother me to drink....when he's sober. He might jack with me a bit when he's drunk but not too much. At any rate we used to hang every wknd. He just drove by and stopped as we still inter mingle. I asked him what they were up to tonight. Big surprise. Going to the bar. I used to actually be a star at this bar because i'd ride my 4 wheeler there and go thru the backroads and woods on the way home lol. It was almost like breaking up with a gf...he had a sad look on his face after he told me and then said ok well have a nice day talk to you later. I didn't bother telling him the wife wasn't here cause I didn't want him egging me on.

I have another friend, since grade school, and we've actually been drinking together off/on since high school. He only drinks one time a week but it's generally 20 beers in one night. I didn't bother telling him either that the wife was gone.

Honestly...I know I can say no I just don't want to hear the crap from them. These people all have careers, when monday rolls around it's back to work. Of course a couple of them drink during the week. I guess what i'm getting at is I haven't worked in years. Due in part to the economy and a bad accident. It's a long story.

So anyhows I got plenty of crap recorded to watch on the tv tonight and bought a huge porterhouse to cook for dinner.

You know i've been so disconnected for so long now I've lost total interests in many things. I just don't care anymore. Fortunately i've lost interest in being drunk and stupid as well and esp. the all day hangovers.

I'm still trying to whip depressions rear end and get back to work on my shop stuff and build my website. It all just seems overwhelming at times. I don't have crippling depression, just enough to jack with me.

You know I can recall as far back as last summer, friends wanting to come out to drink and even at that point I was like 'this has to stop, I feel like im doing something I shouldn't be doing, i'm really tired of this crap".

Ok enough for now i'm just rambling on.

dog69

Other random thoughts, lol, it's interesting to watch these guy's health status. One also smokes pot all the time and has throat cancer. Take a wild guess what he's doing today? The other one continually talks about retirement in 8 years. There's days at work he can't even walk up stairs. Literally. And you're worried about retirement?

The other, really, really annoying thing I find is the 'justifications' they come up with to drink. I used to do the same thing. No sense listing them all, it could be anything. Tonights big reason is the bar has a new cook and is going to kick off with 50 cent tacos. We must go. And drink ourselves into oblivion while we're at it.

I suppose another annoying thing is listening to them cry about being broke all the time. Work 40hrs week, then do side jobs during the week and most wknds. Then blow it at the bar. LOL. It's insane.

I guess i'm just in a venting mood. Wifes gone, all my friends are out getting wasted, i'm here at the house alone, it just seems odd.

ArtFriend

Are you trying to talk yourself into feeling better about not going to the bar by denigrating your friends?

kzaug2014

I say do anything you have to do to stay sober!

TomTom75

It's good you posted again about the health and state of the dudes. We can easily convince ourselves of the good parts of drinking when we want to but thinking realistically helps. It's a tricky mind we have . Im gonna do this too.

leviathan

i did not read that as denigrating at all.
i also notice those that are in the mouse trap and drinking/using to ill effect.
it is unfortunate.
i would help if they asked.
but examples are provided, and i feel like its my responsibility to pay attention. i sure could have done this more when instead, i decided i needed to burn my own castles!
Keep On, Dog! all good!

ArtFriend

not denigrating?

ScottFromWI

Remember that the only person you can control is yourself. Breaking bonds with old drinking pals is hard, but it's a necessity for most of us. Sounds like you have some great goals ahead with your shop and website...why not work on that a little this weekend? The porterhouse and movies sounds like a great evening plan too. And remember....the few moments of "fun" your buddies are having will be followed by a lot of pain and remorse.

Mentium

You sound a bit nostalgic about your old drinking buddies. I have to say though they sound like they are on their last legs due to it, whereas you have had the sense to get out while the getting is good!

dog69

I understand where you're coming from. I don't really consider it the way you do, though. What i've stated is fact. That's how the situation really is.

If you're a messed up drunk, am I supposed to think of a better word just because you're a friend?

Trust me......I am generally the one on the butt end of jokes with these guys so I have a lot of catching up to do lol.

Anna

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The Newcomers Forum is a safe and welcoming place for newcomers. Respect is essential.

ArtFriend

My apologies

Gilmer

You're so much better off right now, Dog. Enjoy your steak and sleep peacefully tonight.

Thepatman

Well done not going to da bar!

Those cheap nachos sound really nasty anyways. LOL!

Enjoy the evening! Good for you to realize you are not missing anything other than a massive sunday hanover.

Rock on!!

PurpleKnight

Keep pushing through, it's going to take time to adjust to new routines and a lifestyle without alcohol.

Like everything in life, it takes practice and time to get comfortable with the new Sober you!!

Hang in there!!

dog69

Thanks for all the support and no offense was taken Art. I worked heavy construction for 15 years you'll have to try a lot harder than that lol.

clayton621

only thing thats ever come from bar tacos are an upset stomach and the inability to trust a fart or sneeze...