Foolsgold186

I don't know why but I really feel like drinking today. I'm nearly 33 weeks pregnant and I'm really trying to stop myself going to buy a bottle of wine.

I've been out this afternoon with friends, I'm trying to keep busy but the thought of drinking won't leave me. Boyfriend is in Prague for a stag weekend so I'm myself.

I'll never forgive myself if I drink. I'm sober nearly 9 months?! Why am I having these thoughts now?!?!

PurpleKnight

How's your HALT status? anything that might be intensifying those thoughts?

48heath

They will pass Foolsgold.Have a cup of tea or whatever else you normally drink.

May be a bit of fear creeping in because you are on your own.

Stick close to SR and you will be fine.

Ghostlight1

I'm sorry you're having those thoughts now. The brain works in mysterious ways.
But that's all they are-thoughts. You don't have to act on them. They will go away, I hope.
Remember, you've got two to take of now and one of them has no choice.

Foolsgold186

I don't know purpleknight. I'm a bit lost as to where this feeling has come from - I thought I was by this nonsense. Looks like I'm further back than I thought!

PurpleKnight

Don't beat yourself, thoughts are not actions, it's fine to have thoughts, remember that!!

The old life has a habit of popping up out of nowhere, it sometimes happens me too, just stick to the plan, follow your new routines, stay close to support and there's nothing to worry about!!

Something to distract might be a good idea, or some fresh air, even a nap sometimes is a good idea, my mood can completely change after one of those, or a nice cup of tea!!

Foolsgold186

Remember, you've got two to take of now and one of them has no choice.[/QUOTE]

Thank you ghostlight I really needed to hear that - if I drink and I hurt my baby id never be able to forgive myself.

I'm really gutted at myself for feeling like this.

I'll ride this feeling out.

Thanks

wehav2day

I think purple is asking if you are:

Hungry
Angry
Lonely, or
Tired.

Most common triggers. If you are any of those things and fix them now, you will probably feel fine quite quickly

Leshar

Don't be hard on yourself for having cravings. It's good to post here for support. Cravings are awful, aren't they, but they will pass. I agree about the HALT reminder, it's been helpful to me. Good wishes to you.

Bmac

Wow, I can sure relate to this. I remember about a year after my divorce. My ex and I had become very good friends and close partners in parenting. We had a great relationship. One day I woke up and was filled with anger and resentment towards her, after all this time and after all the hard work we both did to build a great relationship. What the heck? I was baffled. I was beginning to think that all that work in building a good relationship meant nothing and that I was back to were I was a few weeks after my divorce. Bottome line, I just let it flow through me and did not own it as something that was my reality. My true reality was that I had already processed all of that anger and resentment. Your true reality is that you are sober and that this fleeting thought is just that....a fleeting thought does not define where you really are. You are NOT back to were you were at 1 week sober being flooded with urges. This is a one time, short lived moment that will pass soon.

JimdiGriz

Maybe you need to comfort and reward yourself. I do it with chocolate.. And films that my wife would not watch..

.. Hang on.. That doesn't sound right.. I mean action films..

SoberLeigh

You are doing beautifully, foolsgold, simply beautifully.

As others have said, these are just thoughts, nothing more; they will pass.

Treat yourself to ice cream, cake, sparkling juices. Be extra good to yourself and your little one - won't be long until he/she is in your arms and looking up lovingly into your eyes and onto the face of the mother who made sure he was healthy.

TomTom75

Never read the HALT thing very helpful. Foolsgold sending you some love from Scotland too hang in there.

Foolsgold186

I made it through! Bath, ate some good food and watched a film.

Thank you guys!

L x

JimdiGriz

Well done fools gold

You're efforts help me

I always read it as HALTT
Hungry angry lonely tired and thirsty

soberclover

I hope you are feeling better Foolsgold186....thinking of you!

Soberwolf

You done good sounds like it came out of the blue im glad you got through it & your strengthened your sobriety