90 days… but with a shocking realization...
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90 days… but with a shocking realization...
90 days sober today 
I’m still trying to keep foot to the floor though and focus on working at all of the new challenges and things I need to keep changing.
Now I have a tiny bit more distance I realize how without sobriety no development was ever going to happen in my life. In fact all of the huge signposts I was ignoring were pointing to heartache and suffering.
I’ve been reading and learning a lot about my disease, and am still truly shocked at how serious and fatal it is. Whilst actively drinking, I was just freewheeling though, thinking maybe next week will be better timing or after this or that stressor or hangover has passed… Now I understand how lucky I was to get to stop before it got completely and utterly out of control. Alcoholism is as real as my denial was. And the path I was on was *for sure* a terminal one. That realization has just hit me with a big wallop. (Ouch)
Phew. And thanks to y'all.
I’m still trying to keep foot to the floor though and focus on working at all of the new challenges and things I need to keep changing.
Now I have a tiny bit more distance I realize how without sobriety no development was ever going to happen in my life. In fact all of the huge signposts I was ignoring were pointing to heartache and suffering.
I’ve been reading and learning a lot about my disease, and am still truly shocked at how serious and fatal it is. Whilst actively drinking, I was just freewheeling though, thinking maybe next week will be better timing or after this or that stressor or hangover has passed… Now I understand how lucky I was to get to stop before it got completely and utterly out of control. Alcoholism is as real as my denial was. And the path I was on was *for sure* a terminal one. That realization has just hit me with a big wallop. (Ouch)
Phew. And thanks to y'all.
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Congratulations on ninety days! That's great.
I didn't know how much of life I was missing until I got my head out of the sand. I try not to take for granted the things I didn't think I could do before but now do almost without thinking.
Well done.
I didn't know how much of life I was missing until I got my head out of the sand. I try not to take for granted the things I didn't think I could do before but now do almost without thinking.
Well done.
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