Dying Slowly
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Join Date: Mar 2015
Location: Pennsylvania
Posts: 132
I feel you there, trips. Can't really count how many times I've laid in bed, too hungover to do anything except Google things about alcohol and depression. I'm tired of hating myself over things I did when I was not acting like myself. This could be the last time to go through it, if we are strong... hope you feel better and keep coming back.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: MN
Posts: 8,704
Hi Trips, I see you joined this site in 2013 so I get a feeling this has been going on for awhile correct? From what I've read on this site it ends one of two ways: 1. Slowly dying as your post indicates or 2. Achieving sobriety. I'd give number 2 a shot. I wish you the very best.
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
Posts: 61,460
This is what the disease does to us. It robs us of everything, causes self-loathing and it will take us out if we let it. You need to step up and stop the cycle. Take a leap of faith and know that you can do this.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Elkridge MD
Posts: 5
I don't know what to say to all of you but thank you. I never thought anyone could care about me or my plight but here you are all strangers that have extended kind words and advice. Just can't see why I should trade one obsession for another. Doesn't seem healthy either way. But I guess with one you don't die or go to jail.
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Join Date: Jul 2011
Location: North of England
Posts: 1,442
The first step really is the hardest. I speak as a habitual daily drinker. I'm only at day six but already life feels better! It really doesn't take long once you find the determination to get that first day over! And the more I think about it the more I realise that it is not objectively difficult to do that first day and it is only the addiction that makes you believe it is almost an impossible task.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: C.C. Ma.
Posts: 3,697
Hi.
I and many have been there, however it can easily stop with a couple things I find necessary.
I became sick and tired of being sick and tired of the same old every morning. Having attended meetings there were several things needed within us to start a sober life. First I needed to surrender to the fact I had to get honest with myself at all times about my drinking not just the moments I was in pain. Next I needed to ACCEPT the fact I could no longer drink ANY alcohol in safety. Period.
It certainly helped going to a lot of meetingS and being among people who understood along with seeing how sober people acted and reacted in daily life situations.
After a lot of sober years being active in the program, work and changes are needed for a peaceful recovery mentally and emotionally.
BE WELL
I and many have been there, however it can easily stop with a couple things I find necessary.
I became sick and tired of being sick and tired of the same old every morning. Having attended meetings there were several things needed within us to start a sober life. First I needed to surrender to the fact I had to get honest with myself at all times about my drinking not just the moments I was in pain. Next I needed to ACCEPT the fact I could no longer drink ANY alcohol in safety. Period.
It certainly helped going to a lot of meetingS and being among people who understood along with seeing how sober people acted and reacted in daily life situations.
After a lot of sober years being active in the program, work and changes are needed for a peaceful recovery mentally and emotionally.
BE WELL
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Join Date: Jun 2014
Posts: 1,869
Only YOU can stop the madness. Have you tried all the tools suggested here? Have you looked into AVRT, AA or any of the other methods?
It will not just fall on your lap but you can make it happen!!!
You never have to feel so low again!
We will be here for you along the way.
It will not just fall on your lap but you can make it happen!!!
You never have to feel so low again!
We will be here for you along the way.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Central Texas
Posts: 1,501
It can end right now but only you can end it. No magic pills. Just hard work and determination to end it. The good thing is that you are not alone here and there is lots of support and motivation on this forum and many other places to help you. Is today day 1?
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