Day 4

Reply Subscribe

Thread Tools

03-16-2015, 02:09 AM

# 1 (permalink)

JimdiGriz

Member

Thread Starter

Join Date: Dec 2011

Location: london uk

Posts: 261

Day 4

Had some sleep
Got to aa last night.. Still find it difficult to share
Night sweats
Very Anxious and nervous about today at work.. Makes me feel sick.
Lots of targets to hit and my head feels like a colander of spaghetti
My poor sick mum is very bad.. Spent sometime with her yesterday and I can see how much she is suffering. Breaks my heart.
Brought my little boy to nursery- so full of excitement innocence fun.. I should revel in that but it also makes me feel so sad I'm blocked and feel remorse and shame that I've messed up so many things in my life.
Maybe I'm waking up at last?

03-16-2015, 02:15 AM

# 2 (permalink)

Dee74

Administrator

Join Date: Apr 2007

Location: Australia

Posts: 211,416

I'm sorry for your mum Jim - but I'm glad you're sober.

The longer I stayed sober and worked on my stuff, the more I changed - and the less the past, and the things I did in it, haunted me

I know it will be that way for you too

03-16-2015, 02:34 AM

# 3 (permalink)

mns1

Sober Soldier

Join Date: Nov 2014

Location: U.S.A.

Posts: 1,911

Sorry about your mom Jim, but good job on day four just try to stay strong and focused

Keep hanging in there!

03-16-2015, 02:58 AM

# 4 (permalink)

Stu Purple

AKA Supersonic

Join Date: Oct 2007

Posts: 50

The first few days are the hardest, my brain was scrambled and going to work was really tough. It does get better though, much better, and for me that was around day 5. It's different for everyone though and it might take a bit longer but I can promise you it will be worth it.