Dave36

...........

Dee74

...is rough.

How are you doing Dave?

D

SoberLeigh

Come back home.

Anna

Dave, how can we help?

least

Don't go back there.

growpath

...you don't wanna do that. It's unsure if you'll make it back. Stay here with us. We need you sane.

What's going on, Dave?

Dave36

I'm not gonna lie. It's good to feel like a human being again. Not a jittery anxious mess.

Hevyn

Dave it'll never give you what you want or need. Speak to us.

SoberLeigh

It's a short-lived, temporary and deceptive reprieve, Dave. In the end, alcohol only fuels the anxiety.

Dave36

I'm sick of sticking it out and trying to be strong. And STILL feeling like **** after 2 plus months. It's so much easier to just feel better

brynn

Dave....what about tomorrow? This is not what you were saying the other day.

Being drunk is not a normal human state....it's not sustainable long term and you know that.

What's going on?

brynn

Dave...have you seen your doctor about the anxiety?

Dave36

I know it's not normal but it's all I know. Since I was 17. I'm 37 now. That's a lot of life being this way.

strategery

Please don't go out Dave. You're not doing yourself any favors.
It's better to get sober now than try and get sober down the road with numerous health problems. It's not going to get easier, but will only get worse.

Mountainmanbob

Compared to what could be a lifetime of misery, I think that I would give it a little more time being sober. For all that I have seen, it get's better.
MM

brynn

Dave...we are the same age, and yes, it's a lot of life spent drunk....but we've got a lot more life to live and I can't imagine you want you live the next 37 years drunk. I know I don't.

Dave36

Idk guys. I get what you're saying. I'm a pretty intelligent guy. That's half my problem actually. I feel and see too much. I almost wonder if this isn't better. Even if it kills me. I'm not asking for attention or anything like that. It's not fake drama. It's just better this way I think.

Dave36

Right now I can't think of a good reason to not feel like I do right now for the rest of my life.

brynn

Have you seen your doctor about the anxiety?

doggonecarl

Remember writing this?

"Hello. I'm 61 days sober today. Doing ok. Not great."

So you were OK then, feeling like **** today. The difference between then and now? You are drinking; your addiction wants you to keep drinking, so now sobriety sux. The rantings of someone in his cups.

I hope you haven't slide down the rabbit hole too deep, Dave, to get back on the sober path.