Thatdeliveryguy

Fact: I am alcoholic and although I can must many days of sobriety in a row, I don't stop, I always drink afterwards.

Fact: I lie to myself and others because rehab scares me, not drinking scares me, getting over depression and mental illness scares me. Generally, living with me scares me!

Fact: Time is shortening, March 23 is my court date ( no bs this time), I need to have contacted and either be involved in rehab or at least a assessment scheduled.

Fact: I don't take my medication because it makes me fat and very drowsy. I am a patient of Northern Nevada Mental health, but other then getting free meds and referrals. I don't do much more.

Solution: take my meds daily, get the rehab set up before the 23 (or it get ugly) and start looking for work or pursue disability ( I filled out the application, but really want to work)

The truth: this week needs to be about progress. My non action and pontificating, and meandering and fear leads to zero results.

Wow for all my talking, I laid out the whole situation in six stanza's. Please I've been warned about debate or argument in this section. Please give support or move on. I took a few days off to settle things down and refocus.

Dee74

The fear of change responsibility and commitment was way scarier for me, than the reality Jeremy.

I like the truth bit. Focus on that this week. No reason why you can't have some firm plans/commitments by Friday, Jeremy.

D

ScottFromWI

Your solution sounds good to me. I hope you can follow through on it.

Serenidad

Good luck Jeremy! Never give up, ok?

Soberwolf

Hi Jeremy its pretty obvious your scared i dont mean that in a bad way

Im going to call you out on not taking your meds because your fat instantly because thats a cop out

If your not taking your meds for any reason then this is why you need help as you have just said you dont take your meds and you know in your heart them meds keep you safe

i really want you to want inpatient and to face your fear on it otherwise your life will keep spiralling

i remember thinking when i was drinking thinking it cant get worse IT ALWAYS got worse and that is what is happening here

i wish and you know im your friend that you could muster up that acceptance of knowing everything you know to not drink again

There is no shame in inpatient your wife is a prime example

If this is about progress you got to make that call asap today it will benefit you so much

You can do this Jeremy and youl always have a friend in me

SoberLeigh

Great solution, TDG!!!!!! Go for it.

Tonks

Looking forward to seeing your actions speak for themselves.

nomis

Sounds like a solid plan to me. I wish I was as organized! Good luck brother.

JanieJ

Jeremy, that is an excellent plan, my friend.

You have your solution right there. I 've always found that making the plans is the hard bit. Once I've made the decision, then I know what I'm doing, and that makes things easier as I have a direction to go in, a structure to follow.

You know what you need to do, and that's great. You've got it down to the situation and the solution.

Start now, let's get the ball rolling

Soberwolf

Hi Jeremy have a great day today

Thatdeliveryguy

Thanks soberwolf woke up early with a plan in hand. I am going to get my appointment and get my butt in inpatient or outpatient today. Sick of having excuses and being an excuse machine.

Thatdeliveryguy

Oops I forget what would a post be without me telling you what for breakfast, making eggs benedict and hashbrowns.

Thatdeliveryguy

Oops I forget what would a post be without me telling you whats for breakfast, making eggs benedict and hash browns.

nymets86

Good job TDG.

I'm hoping that next time we hear from you, you've made the tough phone call and have started inpatient or outpatient treatment.

I don't think I've replied previously on any of your threads, but I'm rooting for you.

Soberwolf

We are kindred boy i love hash browns and Eggs benedict

Your a good dude Jeremy and i have a lot a lot of faith in you making the call upping your game and progressing in your recovery

This is exellent news !! if you want to talk you can send a pm brother

hash browns if we lived near each other we would just eat lol

Bailey3

Good morning Jeremy. I hope you get today's plan accomplished.

IOAA2

Hi.

I’m also rooting for you one day at a time in a row.

BE WELL

Thatdeliveryguy

Thank you all, the wife is in out patient, the wife is sober. She can do it so can I, going to outpatient or even inpatient doesn't sound all that bad. The wife calls daily, and if chosen goes for random test, even on the weekends ( worst part for her). The advantage, she doesn't really use a computer or type, she has typing classes and computer classes. Stress classes, family classes focused on build a better family, classes on nicotine addiction, actually she said there is only one class a week on alcohol as alcohol is a symptom of a " greater problem"

Gilmer

Hi, Jeremy. I 100% agree with Dee: the dread of the anticipation is far, war worse than the actual doing.

You will be so relieved after you acted--you may even laugh at yourself for having been so terrified!

Soberwolf

Jeremy i swear to you if you done inpatient you will benefit from it much more than outpatient i have a family member currently halfway thru a 6 month rehab

Jeremy this is the best ive seen this family member in over 10 years

Jeremy brother please make that call it will be ok & i know you can do it today

Its your life but this really will help good luck brother