Acheleus

I am very scared and alone. I am almost six months sober in a few days. I am so frightened and I feel like there is something wrong with me. I'm trying to get through each moment but all I want is alcohol to help ease my fear and anxiety, yet I know drinking will only make it worse. I'm also mad at myself and I do not understand anything right now. I talked to my sponsor today. I just don't want to drink but I cannot think or focus or concentrate. I'm scared and I don't see any kind of future for myself. I'm just scared sorry for the whiny post.

Dave36

I very much understand where you are coming from. I've been struggling bad the last few days. I know what you mean about just wanting to drink to have a little peace but I know that it'll be worse in the long run. Sometime it does seem hopeless. It's like I can't drink and I can't not drink. I'm just laying down waiting for time to pass. I'm very early in sobriety and afraid it'll be like this forever

neferkamichael

Acheleus, almost 6 months sober is just FANTASTIC, congratulations. I think ya did the best thing ya could do, reach out for support and ya got it here, rootin for ya.

Thepatman

Hang in there! We have your back.

Acheleus

Thank you. I'm just going to be sober today.

Carlotta

Good. Try also deep belly breathing and maybe playing a relaxation tape on youtube?

Soberwolf

Were here 24/7 bud you can drop a pm anytime

Dee74

You've come a long way Ach - there's no reason why you can continue to make great progress

Whatever the fear is in you, talk it out, not only here but with your sponsor and with the folks at your meetings and other trusted people in your life.

Shining light on the monsters under the bed can only help

D

PurpleKnight

Hang in there Ach, don't throw away 6 Months, that's a fantastic achievement to have come this far!!

doggonecarl

Could be PAWS. I know at 180 days I sensed a regression in my recovery, felt like I had been sober only a few weeks, not 6 months. Looked up PAWS and it explained what I was feeling. Not that knowing made it better, but it was good knowing it was "normal" and not me going crazy.

Acheleus

I'm going to feel good again. I'm protecting my sobriety. One second at a time some days.