ulfr

AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH
WTF AM I THINKING ???
i need to go to an aa meeting right now but its after midnight here
i have appointments tomorrow at 9.30 am and then i have another one at 12.30pm with my therapist cant get to another meeting until 6.30pm I am thinking about drinking and drugs want to leave the house go out into the city and beg for money
av done that before i meet my husband
i cant sleep ... my body is tired but my mind is racing ... i keep jolting as well my body wants sleep but i cant i need to stay awake to work things out

ScottFromWI

If your physical withdrawals are that bad don't be afraid to see the emergency room. Make sure you have eaten and drink some water too. And whatever you do, don't drink or use...that will absolutely make things worse.

Gilmer

I am praying for you now, Dark Asylum. Just get in your bed and lie there, even if you can't sleep. You will stay safe.

thomas11

Read, keep posting, do whatever. You can get through it.

Alynn

I'm sorry DA. Please push through it. Get to your appts and meeting tomorrow you will feel better. Here for ya!

Dee74

Wasn't your husband going with you tomorrow the doctors DA?
If not maybe you should ask him to?

D

OnMyWay7

Hang in there.

MyShadow

Hang in there, read and post. Work your way through it.

sugarbear1

XA-Speakers - The lights are on!

listen to a meeting

Jsbodhi

Maybe have a bath, tea and read a little while?
You can do it xxxxx

Terry84

Pray to god Asylum, HE will give you strength to fight your cravings. I also pray for you, hope you'll get better soon. God bless you

ulfr

Sorry everyone i was upset last night still feel upset today
past things getting to me my husband is going to take me to my appointment he read what i wrote and says he going to be with me the whole time
until i get to a meeting
going to my first appointment with my dr
my husband is taking the car i think

Esspee

Please don't feel the need to apologise. You needed to let it our somewhere and better here than somewhere unsafe.

I am so pleased your husband is understanding and supportive. Good luck with your appointments. x

ulfr

seen my dr everything is ok with that
got my therapist in two hours then its another 6 hours before the next meeting
unsure if my husband is going to trust me to go there and stay there until he come back and get me
ill just try and keep myself as busy as i can
going to make myself a strong coffee and ill see how i go

ulfr

Went to my therapy appointment told her about AA she said its good that i go to it she said we need to work on going on the buses but not to do it when am ill because i could have a setback
my husband says he dont want me to go to and from the meeting by myself because of what i said to him about getting money for drink and drugs he cant be in the meetings with apart from the one on a Wednesday he said he will go it but not every week

Still want to drink take drugs and cut
but am on day 5 need to keep busy

3 hours until i can go to the meeting

Redemption28

That's what was happening to me the last few times I drank, after two days of not drinking, my body would jerk me out of sleep. At that stage, I knew I had to knock the drink on the head. Body was psychically addicted to alcohol. Very unnerving. Those cravings will pass with a bit of time. I think distracting your mind is a very good thing to do when things get like that. A hot shower is a great way to get through it. But giving into those feelings will only make things worse. The only way is through. Hope you can get through them. It can be done. Take care.

thomas11

Hi DarkAsylum, Sounds like you have taken steps in the right direction. Ultimately you are your own driving force. Great job, I hope you keep it up.

JD4010

Keep up the great work, Dark Asylum!

I see you are from Scotland. I want to visit there someday. Actually, I wish I could move there!

Sherlock5

Glad to hear you are alright Dark Asylum. Keep on.

Dee74

Hope you got to the meeting

D