sorry everyone
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sorry everyone
to be back again
binge drinking , just to cope
out of control with it
in and out of the aa rooms like a revolving door.Difficult to find the consistent time with my obligations
trying to make it my priority
half a bottle of vodka last night
struggling this morning
remorse, shakiness(emotional and physical), sadness and the horror of having to get to work and function like im normal all day
sorry to lean on you, any encouragement would be useful##thankyou
binge drinking , just to cope
out of control with it
in and out of the aa rooms like a revolving door.Difficult to find the consistent time with my obligations
trying to make it my priority
half a bottle of vodka last night
struggling this morning
remorse, shakiness(emotional and physical), sadness and the horror of having to get to work and function like im normal all day
sorry to lean on you, any encouragement would be useful##thankyou
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Hi
I suppose I'd say myself
Worry
Sadness.. Grieving one parent and another terminal
Feeling un-normal etc
All the
But these are just pegs for the drinking
Can't get it under control.. Or rather cant stop.. I am trying but around 5pm the drinking impulse just takes over
Deeply upsetting
I suppose I'd say myself
Worry
Sadness.. Grieving one parent and another terminal
Feeling un-normal etc
All the
But these are just pegs for the drinking
Can't get it under control.. Or rather cant stop.. I am trying but around 5pm the drinking impulse just takes over
Deeply upsetting
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Hello Jim! So sorry to hear about the loss of one parent, and the other not well. Don't be hard on yourself right now. Realize that masking the sadness with an old salve (drink) won't get you anywhere at all. Just for one day, today, do something different at 5pm, for an hour. Then, once you get there, do something else. Buy a book, eat something you love, call a friend... Avoid the store where you buy your liquor. You won't feel un-normal for long, you'll feel, real!
You are worth it! There is a lot to live for, and it gets much, much better, quickly...
You are worth it! There is a lot to live for, and it gets much, much better, quickly...
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The things that helped me were finding more support, using that support; and making changes in my life with the help of that support.
You obviously have a good deal to be sad about right now - but drinking is not an effective coping mechanism.
what about finding more support as a first step, Jim? is that possible?
You obviously have a good deal to be sad about right now - but drinking is not an effective coping mechanism.
what about finding more support as a first step, Jim? is that possible?
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Originally Posted by JimdiGriz 
Hi
I suppose I'd say myself
Worry
Sadness.. Grieving one parent and another terminal
Feeling un-normal etc
All the
But these are just pegs for the drinking
Can't get it under control.. Or rather cant stop.. I am trying but around 5pm the drinking impulse just takes over
Deeply upsetting
I suppose I'd say myself
Worry
Sadness.. Grieving one parent and another terminal
Feeling un-normal etc
All the
But these are just pegs for the drinking
Can't get it under control.. Or rather cant stop.. I am trying but around 5pm the drinking impulse just takes over
Deeply upsetting
AA helped me, the Big Book helped me.... I don't go a lot and I'm still gradually working the steps but it did help - along with SR and working with my therapist on getting myself emotionally on track a bit more.... dealing with things healthily.
I've been where you're at, but I kept at it and I chose more and more to embrace sobriety. It's so worth it.
May you find your path as well.
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Thankyou all.
I'm wary of using too much difficult life stuff to justify the drinking although I know that various things run through my life's current.. Drinks always been present like an ugly Siamese twin
Had to make a will with my wife a couple of days ago and it brought sharply into focus that outside my dying mother I am an orphan.. Hard to handle that.. I have my wife and child.. But her family live in another country.
Response.. Drink vodka
Pressure at work.. Drink vodka
Body image.. Drink vodka
Feeling bored or lonely.. Drink vodka
Trying to fit in with others.. Drink vodka
I just hate lying to my wife.. Being false and being a slave to that impulse
Anyway.. I'll get some numbers and a sponsor at aa that's my next step I think
I'm wary of using too much difficult life stuff to justify the drinking although I know that various things run through my life's current.. Drinks always been present like an ugly Siamese twin
Had to make a will with my wife a couple of days ago and it brought sharply into focus that outside my dying mother I am an orphan.. Hard to handle that.. I have my wife and child.. But her family live in another country.
Response.. Drink vodka
Pressure at work.. Drink vodka
Body image.. Drink vodka
Feeling bored or lonely.. Drink vodka
Trying to fit in with others.. Drink vodka
I just hate lying to my wife.. Being false and being a slave to that impulse
Anyway.. I'll get some numbers and a sponsor at aa that's my next step I think
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Hi Jim
You are here which is a positive step. You are recognising that whatever is going on in your life you are making the choice to drink, the events aren't putting the bottle in your hand. These are ALL positive steps.
In my town AA is hard as there are only three meetings a week for people without transport and even those are widely spaced (and buses stop at around 6.30pm) but I notice you are showing as being in London. I've just done an AA meeting search for the part of London I was born and bought up in (one of the outer boroughs) and there is a choice of meetings everyday.
Take the bull by the horns and go to one - today.
Good luck
You are here which is a positive step. You are recognising that whatever is going on in your life you are making the choice to drink, the events aren't putting the bottle in your hand. These are ALL positive steps.
In my town AA is hard as there are only three meetings a week for people without transport and even those are widely spaced (and buses stop at around 6.30pm) but I notice you are showing as being in London. I've just done an AA meeting search for the part of London I was born and bought up in (one of the outer boroughs) and there is a choice of meetings everyday.
Take the bull by the horns and go to one - today.
Good luck
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Sorry to hear about your troubles, Jimi. 
I know that it is hard to imagine coping without drink, but actually you get used to it. There are other coping mechanisms to use.
Sounds like you are sick to death of it and that's a great place to start.
When that time comes around today, do something different. Plan it this morning. Perhaps go to a meeting at 5pm today ?
You can do this, Jimi.
I know that it is hard to imagine coping without drink, but actually you get used to it. There are other coping mechanisms to use.
Sounds like you are sick to death of it and that's a great place to start.
When that time comes around today, do something different. Plan it this morning. Perhaps go to a meeting at 5pm today ?
You can do this, Jimi.
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Take the bull by the horns and go to one - today.
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Thankyou.. Yes planned for tonight. Generally quite hard to find the time..toddler evening routine. Full time job.wife working evenings. Sick mother etc.
Anyway. Off I go
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Thankyou.. Yes planned for tonight. Generally quite hard to find the time..toddler evening routine. Full time job.wife working evenings. Sick mother etc.
Anyway. Off I go
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