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Hi guys... so, for a while now, I've thought I had a "drinking problem" but could control it if I wanted to... and sometimes I can... but other times I'll just keep drinking and not stop even if I know I shouldn't.
I don't usually drive, but on Friday I did and I got a DWI and my friend was in the car and her parents had to pick her up... it was a nightmare, and I was definitely an *******... and I realized after sobering up, it could have ended way worse...
I feel awful about it. I want to get sober but it's like I have this part of me that's always saying "I can control it"... but so much bad has come from the times I couldn't and I'm just sick of it.
Blahh but I'm glad I found this place. It's also hard because a lot of my friends are pretty heavy social drinkers. I'm 25..
Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read this.
I don't usually drive, but on Friday I did and I got a DWI and my friend was in the car and her parents had to pick her up... it was a nightmare, and I was definitely an *******... and I realized after sobering up, it could have ended way worse...
I feel awful about it. I want to get sober but it's like I have this part of me that's always saying "I can control it"... but so much bad has come from the times I couldn't and I'm just sick of it. Blahh but I'm glad I found this place. It's also hard because a lot of my friends are pretty heavy social drinkers. I'm 25..
Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read this.
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Welcome to SR!
I was never able to control my drinking. It was an exhausting task and quitting for good a huge relief. I am hard learning so it took me 20 years.
You are young, make this a new beginning to a healthy life.
I was never able to control my drinking. It was an exhausting task and quitting for good a huge relief. I am hard learning so it took me 20 years.
You are young, make this a new beginning to a healthy life.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Brisbane
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Hi BSwan,
Welcome to SR. I'm new here as well, in fact we both posted for our first time at almost the same time.
I can relate to the 'I can control this' feeling you describe - I felt it myself for around 10 years, before losing all control recently and not even be able to fool myself any longer. Somebody in the chatroom told me today that it's every alcoholic's goal to be a 'social drinker', which is a perspective I never considered. I've been wondering whether I can one day get to a stage where I can have only one or two drinks at a party or function, and stop without a problem. At the moment, I know I can't, and am lucky I found this site as well. You'll find that the people here are incredibly understanding and supportive, and have accepted everything I've said without judgement. I really recommend you do the same.
Let's beat this together - feel free to PM me any time.
Cheers,
Seb.
Welcome to SR. I'm new here as well, in fact we both posted for our first time at almost the same time.
I can relate to the 'I can control this' feeling you describe - I felt it myself for around 10 years, before losing all control recently and not even be able to fool myself any longer. Somebody in the chatroom told me today that it's every alcoholic's goal to be a 'social drinker', which is a perspective I never considered. I've been wondering whether I can one day get to a stage where I can have only one or two drinks at a party or function, and stop without a problem. At the moment, I know I can't, and am lucky I found this site as well. You'll find that the people here are incredibly understanding and supportive, and have accepted everything I've said without judgement. I really recommend you do the same.
Let's beat this together - feel free to PM me any time.
Cheers,
Seb.
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